Just4Jo - A fat chick trying not to be...

Thanks to everyone for your kind words!
I really didn't mean to sound so damn depressed!
I was just a little down, as I'd had to drop Rhian off with her dad to spend half of Xmas day with him and his family...
I was missing her....
And of course this was the first Christmas that I have been single for years and years so it was a little odd to be honest!
Don't get me wrong.... I had a good day, it was just different that's all.
I ate too much - as usual!!!
So today I'm back at the gym...
Time to get focussed on the end goal - I have spent too long procrastinating and not enough time actually DOING.....
It's about time I started taking care of myself!!
Lately I have been putting too much energy into friendships that give me nothing in return, and neglecting the true friends that I have.
So it's time to stop doing that too!
Concentrate on the positive forces in my life and stop dwelling on the negative!
It's easy enough to say, but not quite so easy to do!
But I'm working on it.....
2007 will be my year!
But for now..... I'm at work (I only get the Statutory days off) so best I get back to it and do what I am paid for!!!
I'm hoping to get to the gym tonight too!
Just have a couple of things to do after work..... but I have my gym bag in the car - so fingers crossed!!!
Bring on the New Year I say!!!

It's a strange Christmas for me this year...
The first Christmas that I have spent "alone" in many years.
It's raining, cold and I haven't had a drink.
I'm at mum & dad's place...
I'm gonna jump on mum's treadmill I think....
It's weird.... before I started typing, I had so much to say.
Now, I find myself sitting here trying to force words onto the screen..
So much to say, yet I dont know how to say it.
I'm sad.
But I feel that I shouldn't be, as it is Christmas and I have my family and my health, when there are so many out there that have neither.
I don't regret anything, but I wish that some things didn't have to be like they are..
Probably not making much sense here, so I'll sign out and go try to get happy!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
May your day be filled with family, love and laughter....

I'm still here, still plodding along.
Haven't gained any more weight since I got back from Sydney - currently sitting on about 112kg.
And I'm happy about the not gaining part.... can't say I'm that thrilled with the not losing part, but until I get my head back to where it needs to be - that will just have to do!!
Don't get me wrong, I haven't given up, I have no intention of ever giving up and going back to that 162kg slob that I used to be!
It seems like a lifetime ago, yet some days it seems like just yesterday!  
Weird huh?
I've had a few emails recently from people with words of encouragement, words of advice, some words of concern about my noticeable absence....
But I'm here to tell you that I'm good.
In fact I'm doing really really well!!
But the fact of the matter is, is that this blog and my website in general are no longer major parts of my life.
I don't feel the need to come in and bleat on about my day, however boring or exciting it may have been.
I have an amazing daughter, a wonderful family, some fantastic friends, and a great job.
I'm happy with where I am at right now.
I'm enjoying life, getting out with my girlfriends, meeting new people, doing new things.
I'm trying to be the best mum that I can be when I have Rhian here with me, and I'm really enjoying her more and more each day.
She is at such a gorgeous age....
Just the other day she put her little handbag over her arm and informed me that she was "going to work mummy"
And off out the door she toddled, walked to the car, walked back again, and then told me that she was going to the shop instead!
Came back with some "lollies" (stones) for me, then she was off again to another shop....
Too cute!!
She had me in fits of laughter!!!!
She is my world, and I would do anything for her....
Which is why I am thinking of stepping outside my comfort zone and taking up an amazing offer that I have been given....
A friend of a friend has bought a house that he is currently renovating.
He has suggested that I rent it from him, paying a minimal rent, on the condition that he can renovate around me.
It would give me the chance to save some serious money, and in turn enable me to buy my own home much much sooner than I could have ever dreamed of!!!
I really like my little unit that I am renting now, but it is expensive, and although it is manageable, money is rather tight, and at the end of the day - it's not MINE!
I'm not sure what to do, but I'm thinking about it, and will look at it more seriously after Christmas.
Things are busy at work, which is good - cos it keeps me focused.
When I have Rhian, it is all about her, we do things together, we have fun...
When I don't have Rhian, it is all about me!
I hang with my girlfriends, I go out for dinner and drinks, and I even go out pubbing and clubbing.
I'm having a blast and I'm happy.
Truly, honestly happy.
So with that in mind..... I'm completely fine with letting this blog go for a bit.
I'm not closing it, or ceasing to write updates, but I can tell you now that the updates will be even more scarce than what they have been now.
I'll be back to blow my trumpet when I need to, and vent or rant when I want to, but for now..... it's just gonna have a rest!
No dramas, no hassles, just a rest....

I'm still here, still plodding along.
Haven't gained any more weight since I got back from Sydney - currently sitting on about 112kg.
And I'm happy about the not gaining part.... can't say I'm that thrilled with the not losing part, but until I get my head back to where it needs to be - that will just have to do!!
Don't get me wrong, I haven't given up, I have no intention of ever giving up and going back to that 162kg slob that I used to be!
It seems like a lifetime ago, yet some days it seems like just yesterday!  
Weird huh?
I've had a few emails recently from people with words of encouragement, words of advice, some words of concern about my noticeable absence....
But I'm here to tell you that I'm good.
In fact I'm doing really really well!!
But the fact of the matter is, is that this blog and my website in general are no longer major parts of my life.
I don't feel the need to come in and bleat on about my day, however boring or exciting it may have been.
I have an amazing daughter, a wonderful family, some fantastic friends, and a great job.
I'm happy with where I am at right now.
I'm enjoying life, getting out with my girlfriends, meeting new people, doing new things.
I'm trying to be the best mum that I can be when I have Rhian here with me, and I'm really enjoying her more and more each day.
She is at such a gorgeous age....
Just the other day she put her little handbag over her arm and informed me that she was "going to work mummy"
And off out the door she toddled, walked to the car, walked back again, and then told me that she was going to the shop instead!
Came back with some "lollies" (stones) for me, then she was off again to another shop....
Too cute!!
She had me in fits of laughter!!!!
She is my world, and I would do anything for her....
Which is why I am thinking of stepping outside my comfort zone and taking up an amazing offer that I have been given....
A friend of mine has bought a house that he is currently renovating.
He has suggested that I rent it from him, paying a minimal rent, on the condition that he can renovate around me.
It would give me the chance to save some serious money, and in turn enable me to buy my own home much much sooner than I could have ever dreamed of!!!
I really like my little unit that I am renting now, but it is expensive, and although it is manageable, money is rather tight, and at the end of the day - it's not MINE!
I'm not sure what to do, but I'm thinking about it, and will look at it more seriously after Christmas.
Things are busy at work, which is good - cos it keeps me focused.
When I have Rhian, it is all about her, we do things together, we have fun...
When I don't have Rhian, it is all about me!
I hang with my girlfriends, I go out for dinner and drinks, and I even go out pubbing and clubbing.
I'm having a blast and I'm happy.
Truly, honestly happy.
So with that in mind..... I'm completely fine with letting this blog go for a bit.
I'm not closing it, or ceasing to write updates, but I can tell you now that the updates will be even more scarce than what they have been now.
I'll be back to blow my trumpet when I need to, and vent or rant when I want to, but for now..... it's just gonna have a rest!
No dramas, no hassles, just a rest....

Dontcha just love Fridays????
Today is our work Christmas party - no one has ANY idea where we are going or what we will be doing!
It is great!
We all get loaded into buses and taken to a secret location with a secret theme and get pissed!!  hahahaha...
Should be good!
I've had a really really busy week this week, getting out and about with my girl, it's been wonderful.
She is with her lovely nanna and grandad this weekend, so that they can take her to my dad's works kids Christmas party tomorrow morning.
How cool is that???
I jumped on  the scales the other day, I think it was Tuesday...
112.4kg, so that means that I have neither gained nor lost since getting back from Sydney a few weeks ago.
And to be completely honest - I probably SHOULD have gained, cos I have been eating crazy and drinking way too much!
But hey - I'm happy!!!
Righto - got to do some actual work before we head off for the party...
Hahahaha, nah, not really!!!