Just4Jo - A fat chick trying not to be...

Well...... Rhian's "Junk-vi-ti-tis" as she calls it is getting better - gradually!
She is still off daycare, but I'm at work cos her dad is looking after her today - YAY!
He's keeping her for the night which will let me go out to dinner with some old workmates that are moving to a different city.
I didn't think I would be able to go for dinner, but I'm pleased I can as I haven't seen them all for ages!
It was the firm that I worked for when I first moved to Wellington, so I'm looking forward to it!
Not sure if Rhian will be well enough to go to daycare tomorrow, as they have a very strict policy regarding conjunctivitis, which is fair enough considering how contagious it is!
If she is still not well, then I'll be taking the day off again.....
Then I have all next week off on annual leave, so I feel a teeny bit guilty, but bugger it........ family and health is more important right?

Speaking of which - Chris H - I hope you are OK chick!!  Just read Janenes update and my thoughts are with you!

OK, yesterday went quite well at home with Rhian..... it's hard, because although she is fine within herself, because she is so contagious, I couldn't take her anywhere to see anyone, so we were stuck inside all day.
But, we made good use of the day, and got all the washing done, the dishes done, the house cleaned, and then started on stripping the old wallpaper off the walls in her room.
I completely under-estimated how damn hard it was going to be, and silly me thought that I could have the whole room done in a day!
HAHAHAhahahahahahahaha!!!!!
There are TWO layers of vinyl wallpaper, and it is bloody hard work getting it all off!
But we had fun doing it!
Rhian was in charge of the mop and thoroughly wetting the walls (and floor and windows and mummy and herself) and I was in charge of the scraper.
That was of course, until she decided that she needed a scraper too!
She changed her clothes about 50 times, and each time she left the room I was left wondering what on earth she would re-appear in..... jeans and a skivvy and a cardigan turned into jeans and a skivvy and a dress, then the decided that the jeans were too hot so they disappeared, along with her knickers!!!!!
Then the dress came off, as she had found a whole drawer full of summer clothes.  
First it was a pair of 3/4 length pants, then she disappeared again only to return wearing the matching top, as the skivvy "didn't match mum!!!"
I tell ya - if this is what she is like now.... what in the world is she going to be like in 10 years time?!?!?!?!?
HOLY HECK!!!

Anyway......... she is such a little chatterbox, and talked non-stop all day....
Some of her classics were:
"Wow - you got a E-mor-mos piece off mummy"  Meaning I got an enormous piece of wallpaper off in one go!
"You're doing a great job mum!"
and my favourite of all, was near the end of the afternoon when she was getting tired......
"It sure is a big job aye mummy?  We need to stop for a drink break soon"
So all in all it was a good productive day......... filled with cute quotes from my girl!
And being back at work after being at home with her alone makes me miss her even more!
Crazy huh?  hehehehe

Righto - time to go make it look as if I am doing actual work!

Oh yeah.......... food!!!  
Hahahaha.. this blog is supposed to be about weight loss (yeah right) and I have just dribbled on about everything else BUT!
The past few days have actually been quite good in regards to food choices!
I have just made sure that I stayed away from crap, and ate vegies where possible!
Today lunch was a chicken and salad sandwich.... not sure what tonight will be - maybe I'll google the menu!
GOOD THINKING JO!!!!!

NOW time to do some work!

The tummy bug thing that I had on Monday turned out to be nothing too major – diarrhea and vomiting (too much information huh?), and that lasted all day. I had a little bit of soup for dinner on Monday night, but that came up again at about 2am, so when the morning rolled around, I stayed in bed!
I was going to venture out to take Rhian to daycare, but noticed her eye was a bit red… further investigation discovered that it was in fact conjunctivitis, so instead of staying in bed and feeling sorry for myself, I had to take her up to the Dr and get her checked out.
Yesterday it was just in one eye, this morning it’s in both, so although I’m feeling like a box of fluffies, I’m at home looking after my red-puffy-gooey eyed girl.
I have drops for her eyes, every four hours, but it must sting, cos she cries and cried when I put them in.
And of course, that is hard to watch… but I know it is for the best!
There is a chance that she could be away from daycare for the rest of the week – so I’m just taking it day by day at this stage.
Her dad is OK to have her tomorrow if need be, so that is good!
Not a hell of a lot more to report to be honest!The bug certainly helped the numbers on the scales go down…. Right down to 109kgs, but of course as soon as I ate something, they went right back up again – this morning those pesky little numbers flashed up 112kg, but overall – I’m actually happy with that!
My tummy still feels a little tender at times, but I think that is from throwing up….
Oh joy!
Righto – washing to hang out, beds to make, and dishes to do…….. Oh the life of a part time domestic goddess is so hard! *giggles*

Weekend was great.... went out Friday night, staggered home at 4am Saturday morning!
So much for not going out huh?
Started off as "a quiet beer" with a couple of J's clients, ended up being messy!  hehehe
But I had a blast!
Saturday morning I was feeling very sorry for myself, and Burger King certainly helped the hangover, but made me feel stupid for stuffing up an entire week of great eating!
Never mind!  
Onwards and upwards this week.....
Saturday night we babysat J's niece, so I got Rhian as well and they played together really really well.
Sunday I went to say goodbye to Fat Leenie at the bloggers brunch... that was great too!
I'm usually the one that doesn't get to these things, cos I'm too "loved up" in my own little world, but Helena is my idol, so I made DAMN SURE I was there!
Took Rhian and Lizzie and again - they were great!
I didn't venture in to the Women's expo like the others though, as I didn't want my great day and good girls turning into a disaster and monsters!
So we went home instead and just hung out and played, took Lizzie home and then ended up having a quiet Sunday night - fantastic!
Not feeling the best this morning - have already been told by three different people that I don't look well....
Stomach cramps and "the runs" and now I've got a headache too!
Oh joy - I've literally just been told that a bad case of Gastroenteritis is going around!
Man o man I better not have that!
But on that note - it's back to the loo I go!
Think maybe it is safer if I DO go home!

I'm off work today - got the day off on annual leave - just cos I can!
Stupid thing is, it’s 8am and I am wide awake and looking for stuff to do, even though I promised myself a bit of a sleep in!! hahaha....
Although I didn’t really have much of a chance for a sleep in when J got up at 7am and turned the light on!
I’m not really pissed off about it, cos lord knows I’ve got the whole day off, so if I want to take a nana nap later – I CAN!!!
We went out for dinner last night just to a little Malaysian place in Lower Hutt that J rated as being really lovely…. And I have to agree that it was lovely food!
I selected a tomato based chicken dish with plain white rice, and splurged by adding cashew nuts to it! It was just divine!!
One glass of wine was all I had to drink, and then we came home for a quiet night – it was soooooo nice!
Usually we would have gone out and had far too much to drink, and suffered for it today, but both of us are feeling bright and cheerful today! YAY!!!
Plan is to NOT go out tonight either…… that way we can start on stripping the wallpaper in Rhian’s room tomorrow, and getting it ready to plaster then paint.
Of course if we go out tonight, then the hangovers will prevent much from being done tomorrow! Hahaha…..
Oh yeah – I forgot to mention the other day, that the lunch that my work put on for us was also special in another way….
We were all presented with the following:




















They were all carved from the same piece of greenstone and blessed in keeping with the Maori tradition so they are now classed as sacred to us.
I was blown away!!
The Koru design symbolizes “New growth, new beginnings” which is SO appropriate since with the closing of our production in NZ and the impending move to our new site is just that – a new beginning!
Anyway – I thought it was a lovely lovely gesture, and I will certainly treasure it.
Right – the washing machine has just finished it’s first load, so I better go hang that out and chuck another load on….
Gonna clean the house today, do the ironing, do some grocery shopping, and maybe just maybe start stripping the wallpaper early….

YAY - it's my Friday today!
I have tomorrow off.... just cos I can!
If it is nice weather, I'm going to try to get out in the garden, as it DESPERATELY needs tending to!
Dinner last night......... J was still feeling seedy and wanted Potato top Pie, but there was NO WAY that I was gonna have that, so instead I got a low fat canned soup and had that instead.
It was blimmen lovely too!
The night was uneventful, and I didn't do much more than watch TV and surf the net a bit.
Sad huh?
But today is my FRIDAY!!!  Wooohooooo!!!!!
Supposed to be going out for dinner tonight with J, just the two of us, to make up for my "birthday dinner" being at Cobb N Co last week.
Not sure where we will end up, but it will probably be either the Speights Ale House, or Taste of Malaysia....
I'm SURE that I can find something healthy at either place!
And on that note, I'm off to fill up my water bottle and make a cup of tea at the same time!
Talented huh?  *wink*

Ohmigod!!!!!!!!!!
If you ever get the chance to have Nandos Chicken - DO IT!!!!
It was just DIVINE!!!
I didn't over-indulge at all..... had one piece of chicken that didn't have any skin, then loaded my plate up with salad - NO CHIPS thank you very much!!
Then after that, I went back and got another bit of chicken, again without skin, and it was bloody lovely!!!!
Very very highly recommended by me, and everyone else that was sitting at my table in fact :)
2 hours to go until home time..... not a lot on this afternoon, so I am sure that the afternoon will drag on a bit!
I guess it will give me a good chance to surf the internet and find something yummy to cook for dinner!  hehe

Dumb question ahead.....................does herbal tea count towards your water quota?
A workmate gave me a raspberry teabag to try - and it is YUMMM!!!!!
I think I could drink that really easily instead of coffee!!

OK - back to last night.... I had big plans to NOT drink alcohol, to NOT eat fatty foods, and to generally be a good girl......
I am damn proud to say that I was perfect!!
Well...... OK, not perfect exactly, but I was so proud of myself!!
I went to the dinner, took my pasta salad and my bottle of SpriteZero and that is all I drank!
The food table was laden with crap food, but I guess that is to be expected with a house full of teenagers huh?
KFC, Fish & Chips, Lasagne, my pasta salad, another pasta salad, Sausage Rolls, Meat patties, and then there was cake and brownie and hot pudding!
I was a little disappointed, but I stuck to my resolve and didn't go near the table!
I mean, I KNOW what goes into my pasta salad, and there was NO WAY that I was going to eat any!  hehehe....
By 8pm I had a headache from all the screechy teenage girls trying to talk over each other, and I felt completely out of place as well, so I made my exit and left them all to it!
J was still out with his boss and his clients, so I just went home...
Then got a phone call to go collect J cos he had lent his car to some co-workers that are in town for a couple of days.
I got to the bar and him and his clients were drunk, so I had a glass of wine with them, then a couple of hot chips - remembering that I hadn't eaten dinner - and finally convinced them that it was time to call it a night at about 9.30pm.
By the time we got home, I was passed being hungry, so I just went to bed instead....  
So, like I Said, all in all I think yesterday was a success, especially since I was faced with so many temptations!!
Of course this morning I woke up feeling fantastic, and J woke up feeling decidedly second hand!  Hahahaha....... SO GLAD I didn't drink!!!
Today I am going to face more temptation.....
We have a lunch being put on for us at work, to thank us for our hard work year to date....
It is supposed to be a surprise, but I know that it is Nandos.
Not entirely sure what will be on offer, but I have "heard" that Nandos chicken isn't too bad, ie they remove the skin and grill the chicken.
I'm gonna google it soon and see if I can find out more.
I had actually planned to bring my own salad, but unfortunately it is still sitting in the fridge at home cos I COMPLETELY forgot!!!
Righto...... I'm one cup of tea and one bottle of water down already and it's only 9.50am, so I'm damn happy today!
Must say here, a huge THANK YOU to all of you that emailed or left comments recently - it's funny how reading a few lines of encouragement can really lift my spirits and make me feel like I CAN do this!
THANK YOU!!!

My salad at lunch time was OK... nothing to write home about to be honest, but I think that was because there was bugger all lettuce in it, and more red cabbage than anything!
That'll teach me for being lazy and using a bagged salad mix!
I need to pee almost constantly today..... Maybe I was retaining water yesterday or something?
God alone knows, but today I feel less "fat" so I'm happy with that.
Found out at lunch time that the company I work for are looking at starting a Weight Watchers at work program, and will be asking if anyone is interested over the next few days or so.
I'm not entirely sure how I feel about that to be honest!
I mean, it will be subsidised, depending on how many people are up for it.
15 people it will be $8 each, 25 people it will be $4 each!
Don't think they will get 25 people to be honest, but hey - it's worth a try huh?
Maybe I might join up....... not sure yet!!!
Got a meeting this afternoon that will take the better part of an hour, how the hell am I NOT gonna pee for that long??

Didn't get to morning tea this morning - maybe a blessing in disguise??
Sat at my desk working on a meeting agenda and eating a banana.
Tell ya what - it's bloody peaceful on this floor with all the marketing team out of the office that's for damn sure!!  hehe...
Struggled with the Green tea this morning, I think it was because I let it cool down too much.
It was fine while it was nice and hot, but cold...... BLERGH!!!
SHIT - just realised that I left my lovely chicken salad in my car!!!
Better go and rescue it I guess!!
Still feeling positive although I have been hungry this morning... in the past when I get hunger pangs, I grab a coffee - trying SO HARD not to do that today..... I've got a headache already - and it would be so easy to fix it with Caffeines, but if I can just get through today, tomorrow will be better!

Well, either my scales are playing with my head, or my body is completely screwed!
112.6kg was the number that I got this morning – Bizarre!
I don't like it either way!!!
How can someone lose 2.7kgs overnight dammit?
Hmmmmm….. frustrating!
Never mind, I'm in a much better frame of mind today anyway, and I was feeling positive BEFORE I jumped on the scales, so that is good right?
Oh yeah – before I forget…. There is nothing wrong with Coffee with Trim milk and sweetener, but I'm not giving up coffee because of the milk etc…. more because I get really bad headaches from it…
Like I will have 8 cups of coffee a day, and then the next morning, I have a raging headache when I get up, that is quickly fixed by a morning coffee….. It's a never ending cycle that I want to break, cos I don't want to have to rely on bloody coffee!  hehehe
I have given it up before and the headaches stopped, so that is my main reason for trying not to drink as much…. I'm sick of waking up feeling like I have a hangover every damn morning!   (yes – some mornings ARE genuine hangovers *wink*)
Dinner last night was generally a success….. I called in to the supermarket and picked up some salad mix, a few buns and a cooked chicken.
When I got home, J had a friend there, so while they had a couple of beers, I made a pasta salad for a dinner that we are going to tonight, and then once his mate (and the neighbour that turned up as well) had gone, I made chicken salad bread rolls.
I only had one, and I was satisfied, so I was well pleased with that!
So all in all yesterday my food intake was good, and I was happy!
Today, I have a huge lettuce salad with some chicken chucked in to it, and some balsamic vinegar as a dressing…… YUM!
Tonight we are going to a friend's place for dinner as it is her daughters 18th birthday, and she is having some friends over and wanted me there!  How sweet!
I know that they will all be getting on the booze, so I'm just gonna take a bottle of diet lemonade and have a sober night!  I'm sure that will shock the bejeezuz out of a few people that's for sure!!  Hehehehe…
Not sure what other food is going to be on offer, but it is a "take a plate" scenario so hopefully there will be something healthy-ish!  
I got asked to make the pasta salad, cos I make the best one in all the world, so who am I to disappoint huh?
Anyway, it will all be really casual, so if there isn't anything decent on offer, I'll just have something when I get home, cos I don't plan on having a late night at all….
Righto – time to go do some work now I guess!

4.23pm
I survived a whole cup of Green Tea.
Although I am "hanging out" for a coffee!
Not sure how I will get on replacing all my coffee with this stuff, but I'm gonna give it a go....
It's gotta be worth a try huh?

Dinner is GOING TO BE healthy dammit!
Not entirely sure what exactly it will be, but I'm thinking chicken and salad, or maybe even fish - not sure....
I'm gonna be home late cos I have some stuff to do after work, but I'm NOT going to give in and have takeaways!
I JUST WON'T!!!!!

Time to get out of here for the day.......
YAY!

2.42pm
Righto - after a quick trip to the supermarket at lunch time, I am now the proud owner of a box of Green Tea with mint teabags.
I didn't have anything for breakfast - BAD I know.
Nothing at morning tea, except another coffee, and lunch today was a protein shake with a banana added to it for a bit of bulk.
And the only reason that lunch was a protein shake, is because I couldn't walk to the bakery section at the supermarket to get a salad sandwich, because I just KNEW that I would be too tempted to go for something less than healthy, so I didn't bother at all!
Maybe a little stupid in some respects, but today, I know I am weak and I didn't want to put temptation in my own way.
OK - it makes sense in my head alright?!?!?!?!
Right - I'm off to make a cup of tea!!!!
See if I survive no caffeine this afternoon!!  *wink*

Please feel free to skip this self indulgent oh "woe is me" post..... I feel crappy today........... and this is where I can vent about it:
Actuall, I feel totally like a totally inadequate, hopeless, useless, waste of space today to be perfectly honest!
Jumped on the scales this morning...... 115.3kg!!!
The numbers are going UP!!!
I know exactly why - I eat too much, I don't exercise, and I drink too much as well!
It's a feeling sorry for myself day today, and I feel like a big fat pig who has no self control!
It's a horrible feeling.... hating yourself this much!
I feel like a total fraud half the time.... like on Friday night....
We were in Foxton, and called in to the local pub.
Ran into some people that I havent seen for years, and they were all like "Ohmigod - you look great!"
One of them even said "Hell Jo, you're all slim and stuff"
OK - so he was pissed, but the words made me smile on the outside, yet cringe on the inside!
I'm anything BUT slim, and I know that compared to the last time any of them saw me, I AM slimmER than what I used to be, but in no way, shape or form could I EVER be classed as slim!!!
A friend of mum and dad's even said that I look great, and of course, I felt like a major fraud, becasue I feel like I am losing the battle at the moment!!
And that is just because I can't get my damn head straight and take control of the situation!
I'll be fine for a few days, then a curve ball comes from no where and throws me off balance, then all it will take is a minor indescretion, and I'm like "Ah well, I already stuffed up, guess it doesn't matter if I have this lollie/chocolate/slice of toast etc"
Then it is like a never ending cycle..... eating eating eating..... on and on it goes!

It started last Tuesday I think.....
I indulged too much in the lollies that were sitting on my bosses desk.
Then Tuesday night for dinner I cooked lasange, but couldn't be bothered doing it the healthy way, so just used beef mince, white sauce from a can, and too much cheese.
It wasn't very nice, so didnt eat that much, but because I didnt eat that much I was hungry later... that's when the ice cream came into it.
Wednesday night, J had a meeting on, so I didnt cook at all, then when he brought fish and chips home later on, "had" to help him eat them!
Thursday was my birthday, went out for lunch with the gorgeous Rach, and had chicken salad.
Not bad huh? Pity the gooey caramel slice with cream that followed it wasn't non-fat then huh?
Then of course we went out for dinner for my birthday.
I NEVER usually get an entree, but that night we decided to go halves in a platter - full of FRIED stuff!!
Wedges, deep friend camembert, onion rings, chicken tenders....... YUM!!!!
Then I got the pork for a main, and it is a rolled loin of pork, with crackling, and it was delicious!
OK - so we were too full to get desert, but the BEER that I had with my meal certainly didnt do me any favours that's for sure!
Friday breakfast was some licorice allsorts, lunch was nothing, then on the way up to Foxton we were both peckish, so called in to Burger King and I got a Double Cheeseburger.
Had too much to drink on Friday night, beer, bourbon, creamy shooters, then left over chicnes at mum's place at 11pm with Cheese on toast... although to be honest, I don't think I actually had any of the cheese on toast!
Saturday morning I had peanut butter and butter on toast, lunch was a panini, dinner was a roast and more to drink... wine and beer, then chippies and cashew nuts.
Sunday was more hot peanut butter toast, then lunch was burgers and chips!!!
Got stuck in traffice for 3 hours on our trip home on Sunday so byt he time we got home there was NO WAY I was cooking, so it was McDonalds for dinner!!!!
NOT GOOD AT ALL JO!!!!
No wonder I feel like a big fat blob today!!
YUCK!
Why the hell do I do this to myself???
I have a really fucked up way of thinking at the moment.....
Like on Friday, I figured that because I hadn't had lunch, the burger would be fine.
Friday night - because I hadn't eaten dinner - Chinese at 11pm would be fine!
It's just crazy!
Even today - I haven't had breakfast, cos I felt so damn shitty, and now I sit here hungry, wondering what I can eat.
I look around me and all there is, is lollies!! And part of me is saying that because I haven't had breakfast, then some lollies will be fine! They will do no harm!
NOT GOOD!
My water bottle is sitting here untouched, and even as I type this, I think - "Nah - I can't be bothered drinking water.... if I drink water I'll have to pee"
STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!
I guess the one tiny thing I did right this morning, was make my coffee with TRIM milk instead of full milk, and I didn;t add sugar, instead I came back to my desk and added a sweetener instead.
It doesn't taste nearly as nice, that's for damn sure!!!
In fact - I was talking to mum on the weekend about my addiction to coffee, and she suggested Green Tea instead.
I've never in my life been a tea drinker, to me it tastes like hot flavoured water - which of course it is.
But she was telling me of the additional benefits of Green Tea aside from teh fact that no sugar or milk is needed!
Like the antioxidents and metabolism benefits etc...
So, at lunch time today, I'm gonna go and damn well buy me some Green Fricken Tea and hop on the bloody wagon that everyone else seems to be on!
Actually, everyone else is MILES ahead of me in that regard, but hopefully I'll catch up one day…

A real quick update cos I'm running out of time...
Went out for dinner last night - only to Cobb n Co, but that was OK cos we had Rhian.
They have a cute wee play area there, and there were about a million other kids, so Rhian was entertained!
We, on the other hand didn't enjoy the meal and have said that we wont be going back there again in any great hurry.
But..... we have also agreed to go out one night when we don't have Rhian and make up for my birthday dinner.
FABULOUS idea!
Even though the meals were shit - I still managed to eat far too much, especially considering the lunch I had!!
Came home a little disappointed, and too bloody full, but still, it was a meal that I didn't have to cook or clean up after!  

Off up to mum & Dad's place this afternoon, gonna bail on work early - YAY ME!
Rhian is SOOOOOO excited about going to Nana's house!  It was all she talked about this morning on the way to Daycare, and when she got there she told all her teachers where she was going too!
So cute!!!

Righto.... time to do some work before I get outta here...
Only 44 minutes to go!  Woohoo!!!

So much for me complaining that no one would remember my birthday!!!
I have been so spoilt today already, just with texts and emails and phone calls to wish me a happy birthday!
I got a gorgeous home made card from a co-worker, soooo touching!!
Everyone that matters at work here has remembered my birthday and have all given me birthday wishes and hugs etc...
Rach took me out for the most delicious lunch and gave me a stunning pink and clear glass ball/paperweight/desk decoration thing.
Hahahaha.......... it is just beautiful!!  If I remember, I will take a photo of it and post it here later, because it really is the most gorgeous thing I have seen in a very very long time!!!!
I feel very loved and very spoilt by everyone!!!
I'm such a princess today!!!   *squeals*

I don't have much on this afternoon, so I will just cruise along, and since I took an early lunch, the office is empty and so peaceful and quiet... it is just delightful!!!
I've arranged to finish early tomorrow afternoon, as we are heading up to mum and dads place for the night (if not the weekend) so that has put a huge smile on my face as well!
If there is one place in the world I feel the most comfortable (except for my own bed) it is at their house!
The family home for over 35 years.... no matter how long it has been, it still feels like home every time I go there!
Yep - I'm a happy camper....
But always the pessimist...... let's see how my day gets stuffed up shall we??
Hehehehehehe

Happy birthday to me....
Yep - 35 today!
J actually remembered it, and although I haven't got anything, he reckons I have to wait!
I'm picking that means that he will rush around today trying to find something suitable!
Why are men so damn hopeless at times??
Mind you.... at least he remembered huh?
Although it was probably due to my gorgeous darling little sis texting him yesterday to remind him!!  
Hehehehe....... thanks Steph - you're a star X
I'm off out to lunch today with the gorgeous Rach (sorry, can't link when I update from work), and I'm gonna damn well enjoy it!!!
I told J last night that I am having a day off "doing stuff" today, so that means I wont be cooking dinner, doing any housework, or washing or anything!!  YAY ME!!!
Righto - I've been in a meeting most of the morning, so I better bet my butt into gear and do some work before heading out to lunch!
YAY!!!

2.09pm
Chicken and salad sandwich for lunch, shovelled into my mouth while I rushed home and did the dishes, brought the washing in, hung another load out, made the bed and got meat out of the freezer for dinner.
Home made burgers are on the menu for dinner tonight - gotta love them!!
I think I'm on my 4th bottle of water for the day, so that's a good sign too!
I've had a few licorice allsorts pass my lips today, but I'm not overly concerned about them at all....
Was gonna try to get out walking tonight, but I'm buggered already, and my day isn't even over yet!
Can't see me walking at all...

4.12pm
Nearly home time thank god!
I'm knackered - it's been a hard brain work day today, learning lots and trying to retain information in my already tired brain is a bit of a chore!
But I'm still trucking along....
Can't wait to get home though :)

I have an impending sense of doom.......
It's my birthday tomorrow, and I haven't mentioned it at all to J.
He KNOWS the date of my birthday, and I am positive that it is in his diary too, but what if he forgets?
Am I setting myself up for disappointment by not mentioning it or dropping hints?
Or should I just get over the whole thing?
I'm gonna be 35 for goodness sakes..... I think I should just forget about birthdays and just get on with life!
Maybe that is why I am thinking about it too much, because it is 35.
That's half way to 70.
30 more years of work before I can retire.
It puts me in the "high risk" category if I was to ever get pregnant again.
6 years older than J.
The next "big" birthday is 40.
I don't wanna be 40!!!
I want to be 26!
But still with the life experience I have now.
I don't think that is too much to ask is it?
I used to laugh at other people when they stressed out about getting older.
Now the tables are turned and I'm depressed!
I want to be 26.
Please??

Early start this morning, J had to be up and gone by 5.45am, so I was awake then too...
Couldn't get back to sleep, and then of course as soon as I did, my alarm went off and I had to drag my tired ass outta bed!
Then it got me to thinking, about when I just started this weight loss journey all those years ago (5 to be exact!!!) it was nothing for me to jump (ok, not JUMP exactly, more like drag myself) out of bed, and go for a walk around the block, or go to the swimming pool and do some laps, or even, GOD FORBID, go to the gym!!
I was excited about it then, I was enthusiastic, and wanted it more than anything I had ever wanted.....
So what changed?
I'm not entirely sure!
All I know now, is that I'm happy in my life, OK, so I'm not at goal, like I SHOULD be, but I'm happy.
I can walk in to a shop and KNOW that I can buy something off the rack.
I don't panic when I have to fly now, cos I KNOW that I will fit in the seat.
Is it because the rest of the population is getting fatter, that makes me seem more "normal" now?
I mean, it is nothing to walk down the street and see lots of woman and girls out there bigger than me.
Even going out to a club, I know that I'm not going to be the fattest in the room anymore....
Isn't that sad?
That everyone around me is getting fatter, so it makes me seem slimmer??
I remember having to shop for a wedding when I was younger..... There was NOTHING trendy in larger sizes at all.
OK - so I'm talking 15 years ago now, but I remember having to get the most disgusting lurid purple and white ensemble from an "old ladies" shop and pretend that I was happy with the way that I looked in it!
Quite simply - I didn't have an option at all!
It was the purple people eater or NOTHING at all!
Nowadays, there are loads of stores that cater for larger sizes, and I am SURE that the sizes are getting bigger and bigger....
And I still find it quite amusing that I automatically STILL go for the largest size on the rack, only to have to put it back and get a smaller one.
But one thing that frustrates the hell out of me is Farmers.....
Size 18 in the big section in tops and skirts is too big, yet size 18 in the "normal" section is usually too small!
What the hell is up with that??
Anyway...... I'm rambling now.......
What changed to make me so complacent?
What changed to make me not want it quite so bad these days?
I guess I'll have to figure that out and get that old feeling back again.....
But until I do, I'll just plod along as I am at the moment.....
Not doing much of anything, just trying not to gain weight.
Which reminds me.... I MUST remember to hop on the scales in the morning.....
Or maybe I am just too scared to?

Monday mornings.... blah!
Dontcha just hate coming back to work after any time off??
Four days off and now I'm back here wishing that I was off again!  haha..
Weekend wasn't too bad food-wise.... I should have actually written everything down, cos I sit here now and wonder what the heck I did actually eat!
I know that McDonalds was on the menu at one stage, but instead of getting a Boss Burger, I got a Deli Roll.... still McDonalds I know, but not as bad - so I was happy with that!
Went out on Saturday night as we had a 21st to go to, drank far too much and staggered home at about 4am I think!!
All in all it was a brilliant night though, as we went to a club after the party and met loads of new people!
Of course in the sober light of day, I can't remember who the hell they were or where they were from, but at the time we were great mates and had a blast dancing the night away!!  *giggles*
After all the mixing of drinks on Saturday night, I was pleasantly surprised to find I didn't have a hangover at all on Sunday - I think it must have been the copious amounts of water consumed and the 2 minute noodles at 4am!
Rhian had a fairy birthday party to go to on Sunday, so Chris dropped her off with me and we got her all dressed up in her fairy dress and dropped her at the party (must upload the pics from my camera actually)... it lasted a few hours, so while she was off having fun, J and I went and had Yum Cha for lunch.
Was bitterly disappointed though, as it was not nearly as nice as last weeks one, so I'm thinking we wont be going back to that particular restaurant in a big hurry.
We opted for lots of steamed dishes this time, so that has GOT to be healthier than the deep fried ones I usually go for right??
Dinner last night was chicken and salad with bread rolls, so again, not too bad.
The plan for this week, is to TRY to get out for a walk or two in the evening after work, but that will largely depend on the weather, and the mood of my darling daughter at the end of the day....
Of course if it is raining, I can't take her out with me, and if she is too tired and grumpy after her day at Daycare, then I wont be putting myself through the torture of lugging her around the block.....
And even if I do get out, I'm not going to be doing any huge walks or anything... gonna start off small and then just ease back into it.
God knows I haven't done much of anything that would even be slightly related to exercise in months!!
Gotta give the body a chance to adapt again huh?  
Right, time to get stuck in and get some work done I guess!!
Bah Humbug!!  

I have today off work on annual leave as well.... YAY!!

Had a blissful sleep in, watched some crappy TV, had a shower, then when I was getting dressed, I decided to be a total vain tart and try to take some pictures of myself!
I wanted a new profile photo you see!

Anyway, the one that I have put up is the best of a bad bunch... funny how you see yourself huh?
My hair looks terrible, as I'm in the process of growing it once again and it is at that yukky in between stage when it is not long enough to tie up, but too long to leave down.
ARGH!!!!
Anyway... I'm off out shopping now..... Rhian is going to a "Fairy Party" on Sunday and I need to go find a suitable present...
Lucky I love shopping huh?

I wasn't going to update today, cos I completely stuffed up again last night, but I figured that is what my blog is for right?
To come here and complain, or celebrate, or just tell it how it is!
Yesterday after work I went to deliver a present to J's neice for her birthday, he was already there, and had picked me up a bottle of wine - bless him!
So i had a glass, then another, then another and before I knew it, the bottle was empty and everything in the rooom was slightly fuzzy and happy!
Got home at about 8pm, HUNGRY as, and since there was NO way I was gonna cook, we got takeaways!
AGAIN!
I got Bami Goreng - a spicy noodle dish that I ADORE, and we got some won tons and chips too!!!
Now, if I hadn't been slightly inebriated, I am guessing that I would have gone for a vege dish and been happy with that, but since the wine had dulled my senses somewhat, I thought "What the hell" and went for something that I knew was bad, but I loved anyway!
This morning I woke with a heavy feeling in my stomach and an even heavier one in my head!
I HATE wine headaches!!


10.15am
No meetings today - thank god!
Just about coffee time - thank god again!
I NEED it!

2.05pm
Lunch done and dusted, I just had a salad and chicken sandwich from the canteen, not very exciting, but it filled the hole!
Not much on this afternoon, and I could do with a sleep!
J has a meeting tonight and it is a dinner as well, so I'll be home alone...
That certainly makes a change - it doesnt happen very often, so I might just potter around and enjoy my "me time"
Might even get the chance to catch up on some blogs that I have been slack in reading lately!
Oooo yeah - got a bargain at lunch time, I had to pop out to pick something up, and decided to call into the No 1 Shoe Warehouse.
Found a cute little pair of black shoes, and when the chick at the counter scanned them - they came up as $2.99!!
NICE!!!

3.51pm
Hanging out for 4.30pm..... I just wanna go home!
Just got invited out for dinner by a chick that I used to work with in my other office, so that'll save me cooking dinner for one.
She recently bought a new house and is now just a few streets away, so at least it is close by.
Wont be a late night though, cos I was looking forward to chilling out by myself....
Reckon I might have time for a coffee now.... might help to keep me awake too!

Felt totally BLAH when I went home yesterday, couldn't be bothered cooking anything, so we had toasted sandwiches for dinner - how exciting..... NOT!
Tuna and cheese - YUM!
Had a glass of wine and a nice long hot bath and felt a million times better!
Got settled in to bed for an early night, then J got called out to work at 9.15pm, so I went for a ride with him...
Home by 10.30pm and asleep by 10.45pm!
Not bad I reckon!
Today I'm still a bit blah..... that time of the month, sore back, sore leg, stomach cramps..... just the usual bullshit!
BUT..... I'm determined not to let any of those crap things affect what I decide to put in my mouth today.
Does that even make sense?
Booked some more leave for the beginning of Sep - not sure what we are going to do, but J and I have the same time off, so we'll see what happens... probably end up doing work around home...

PLAN:
Breakfast - All Bran & Yoghurt
Morning Tea - WW Cereal bar & Coffee
Lunch - Chicken & Salad
Afternoon Tea - Banana
Dinner - Not sure yet.


10am
HUNGRY!!!
Forgot I had an early meeting this morning, so it totally stuffed up my breakfast plans...
Morning tea soon, so I'm just gonna wait until then to eat...
I'll go make a coffee now though - that'll see me through the next half hour!

12.40pm
Where the heck has the day gone to??
Meetings, meetings and more meetings!
Kept my mind off food though - so that HAS to be a plus!  *wink*
Off out at lunch time to buy a present for a 3 year old, so instead of a chicken salad, I'll be having a sandwich of some description.
I'll make it a healthy one :)

4.11pm
Nearly home time - YAY!!
Lunch was a chicken and salad sandwich C/- Pak N Save
Found the perfect present for a 3 year old girl - a Dora the Explorer DVD and some dress up jewellery.
Rhian LOVES that sort of stuff, so I am picking that other 3 year olds must too huh?
Gonna go home, have a wine, then take the present to the birthday girl, maybe have another wine, then go home and chill out!
Might even have another bath..... cos I loved it so much last night - what a fantastic way to relax!
Just wish we had a nice big spa bath!
Busy day today..... I've hardly had time to think about food, let alone stress about it.
I like it that way better!

11.11am
Nearly lunch time!!!
All I've had this morning so far is a coffee.... NOT GOOD!
But I'm not hungry, and I think I'm sub consciously punishing myself for eating so bad over the weekend!?!
Wow - is that deep or just stupid?

2.05pm
Just got back from a quick shopping trip at lunch time with a couple of girls from my office.
Got Sushi sitting beside me now for lunch - YUM!
Hell of a lot better than McDonalds, that's for damn sure!!
My leg / hip is killing me!
I'm walking more an more like an old lady by the minute, and hobbling around the shopping mall was not my idea of fun!
Although I got a couple of really cool tops for J, and they are so cool, that if he doesn't like them - they're mine!
On sale for $10 each - I think that was a good score!
Think I might go to the Dr tomorrow if my leg isn't any better.
Short week for me this week - I have Friday off - YAY!

3.32pm
Hanging out for 4.30pm
Craving sweet stuff.... anything sweet!
Tried an orange - it didn't cut it!
All I want is chocolate!!!!!
NOW!!!

4.26pm
Going home to sulk about not eating chocolate!
Lord only knows what is for dinner...
Think I might be on strike tonight - J can cook!
Hahahahahaha - Yeah right!
His idea of cooking is ordering Pizza!
Eggs on toast - might be about all I can be bothered facing....
I'm grumpy!

I successfully managed to completely stuff up an entire weeks hard work in two days!
Yep - I failed miserably at eating well over the weekend - and I am gutted about it!
No one to blame but myself, I know this, and as a result I am grumpy and totally pissed at myself!
BUT....... It's onwards and upwards again.....
I'm not about to let 2 bad days (make that TERRIBLE days) ruin what I KNOW I can do!!!
It all started at about 5pm on Friday to be honest!
I was all set to go to my friends surprise birthday party.
Raced home, got Rhian all prettied up in her party dress, slapped some more make up on, then the phone rang!
It was J asking me to go around to his sisters place, cos her husband had cut his had, she needed to get him to A & E and she couldn't leave the kids (3 & 4 year old) home alone, and J was in a meeting until 6pm!
So off I went.....
The party I was supposed to go to started at 6pm, so I was gutted to have to make the phone call at 6.30pm to say that I didn't think I would be able to make it!
Just as well I did, as I they didn't get back from A & E until about 8.30pm!
By this stage, the kids had all run themselves (and J and I) ragged and had all been put to bed - Rhian included!
So when the suggestion was made to leave Rhian there for the night, it seemed like the best idea...... UNTIL J and I decided to go out and get some dinner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dinner turned into some drinks, and meeting some friends and that turned into some more drinks, and we finally got home at about 2am thanks to Dial-A-Driver and a butter chicken pie from BP!
NOT GOOD when I had to go and collect Rhian at 9am!
I'll never learn!
I was a bit seedy, but J suggested Yum Cha for lunch the next morning, so we got organised and took Rhian out for her first ever visit to have Yum Cha.  It was so funny..... every time a different dish came around, she would ask what it was, and the funniest thing ever was watching her try to use chopsticks!
All in all lunch wasn't that bad, as I didn't pig out at all due to feeling pretty blah from the night before.
For the remainder of Saturday we just hung out at home, reading, doing puzzles, watching DVD's and just playing....
Dinner on Saturday was J & Rhian's suggestion - PIZZA!!!
I had big plans to eat just 2 slices, but it tasted soooooo good, I think I polished off about 4 or 5!  PLUS a couple of hunks of garlic bread as well!
NOT GOOD!!!!
Sunday started with scrambled eggs on toast, cooked the healthy way - NO BUTTER!
So that was fine, and then we toddled off to Church with J's dad and had lunch there..... It was a pig on a spit with all sorts of side dishes.... I had just a little bit, but then saw the desserts!  Chocolate cheesecake and Ambrosia!!
YUMMM!!!!!  
After that we went home and cleaned the house top to bottom, so I am SURE that I must have burnt off a few of the calories from the crap I ate.... but not enough - that's for sure!
Dinner on Sunday night was Chinese - AGAIN!!!
I had a vegetable and chicken dish, instead of deep fried sweet n sour pork... so at least I made a small effort huh?
Anyway - I have woken up today feeling stodgy and blah and totally FAT!!!!
Not to mention grumpy and tired and sore!
I hurt my hips yesterday somehow, and I'm walking around like a bloody nana!!  
Someone at work had the audacity to hint that it might be arthritis!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE F*#K?!?!?!
Surely I'm too young to get that!?
Oh yeah - by the way, it's my birthday next week (16th) so any presents/gifts can be sent from now on!  hahahaha...
I've just re-read all that I have typed, and isn't it funny that it all revolves around food??
How the hell do I turn my mind off from obsessing about it so much???
Right - best I get my butt back to work.......

Pork stir fry sucked last night - just wasn't that nice, so I was hungry by 8pm!
Gave in and had a small scoop of icecream later on, and it was just enough to satisfy my hunger, and combat the sweet cravings I had.
Avoided the wine, and went home after work  and had a coffee instead - so all in all I think I handled the stress better than I would have in the past!
I usually would have gone home, and shovelled anything that I could find into my mouth!
Baby steps.

Plan for today is................ well ummmm, I dont actually have a plan to be perfectly honest!
Breakfast - Not sure
Morning Tea - WW Cereal Bar & Coffee
Lunch - Not sure, but it will be a low fat choice
Afternoon Tea - Orange
Dinner - Lord only knows!!!

I was running late this morning, I just didnt want to get out of bed at all.... the snooze button on my alarm got hit more times than it should of that's for damn sure!
Of course it didn't help that Rhian wanted to dress herself like a "big girl" so mummy wasn't allowed to help at all!
In fact, when I did try to help, I was told very firmly "Mummy stop - I can do it by myself!"
And the top that I put on her had to come off and she had to put it on again - ALL BY HERSELF!
I mean it is great that she is so independent, but when I'm running late, it makes for a hurried start to the morning!  haha
Tonight I have a surprise birthday party to go to for a very dear friend of mine, so that is why I have no idea as to what will be for dinner.
I mean the party isnt a dinner, but I wont have time for anything before we go, so I'm thinking that I might call by McDonalds on my way and pick up a Happy Meal for Rhian, and then sort myself out later....
Dunno about this daily weighing thing either - the scales this morning flashed 112.9kgs!!  NOT HAPPY!  
I hate hate hate the way that  stupid number can affect my mood!
I'm still feeling positive and happy that I am making good choices, but those numbers still haunt me - I MUST get over that!
Righto - Time to go do some work!!!

9.35am
Already had my first meeting today, now gotta do some running around to get info and stuff.
Haven't even had a coffee yet!  Think I might go have a quick one before I get sidetracked!
Didn't have breakfast this morning, and funnily enough, I'm not hungry at all - not sure why!?!
Weird!

12.01pm
Well it's been a busy old morning so far....
Totally forgot to take my cereal bar to the canteen, so just had coffee instead.
Actually just remembered that - so I'm gonna eat it now!  hehe
Only just finished my first bottle of water for the day, so I have some catching up to do.
Not sure if I will venture out at lunch with the girls yet, dunno if I can be bothered.
It's just one of those "blah" days today.
On the upside though - I just put in for a couple of Fridays off, so that made me smile!
I love short weeks!

2.08pm
Had a salad sandwich for lunch, the others had potato bake and nachos but I resisted.
Baby steps...
Really dont wanna be here this afternoon to be honest... would much rather be outside enjoying the sun that hasnt been showing it's face around here often enough!
I have a friend that is going through a total shit time with a guy at the moment - trying really hard to be positive and supportive for her, but whaddaya do when you can see that a friend is compromising her self worth by hanging around and putting up with him treating her like dirt?
I guess the answer to that is be honest with her, but let her make up her own mind and be there at the end to help pick up the pieces.
Why are guys total dickheads sometimes??

4.15pm
My afternoon eased up and for the last hour I've been sitting here reading blogs!
Everyone is so excited about a party that they are going to on the weekend, I'm starting to feel a little jealous!
I'm sure you'll all have a blast, and make sure you gals have a drink (or 3) for me - EXCEPT Helena - you're on the water my girl!  
Nearly time to get outta here, and I'm not sure how my blogging will go over the weekend, so don't expect to hear from me again until Monday :)

Over and Out...

Got this emailed to me by a friend - and it was too good not to share!

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
Enough money within her control to move out and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to...
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
Something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
A youth she's content to leave behind....
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
A past juicy enough that she's looking forward to retelling it in her old age....
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....
A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .
One friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
A good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
Eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal, that will make her guests feel honoured...
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
A feeling of control over her destiny...
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to fall in love without losing herself..
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to quit a job, break up with a lover, and confront a friend without ruining the friendship...
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
When to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
That she can't change the length of her calves, the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
That her childhood may not have been perfect….but it's over...
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
What she would and wouldn't do for love or more...
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to live alone  even if she doesn't like it...
 
 EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
 Whom she can trust, whom she can't, and why she shouldn't take it personally...
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 Where to go... be it to her best friend's kitchen table... or a charming hotel in the woods...when her soul needs soothing...
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 What she can and can't accomplish in a day... a month...and a year...

Dinner last night was supposed to be home cooked Trim pork stir fry with loads of veges, but I was running late and had a shit of a day, so we got takeaways instead!
Although I opted for a chicken stir fry with veges, so I didn't feel too bad about the whole thing!
Even managed to avoid the ice cream again!
YAY ME!

Today the plan is:
Breakfast - 1 slice toast (pinched from Rhian on the way to work)
Morning Tea - WW Cereal bar & Coffee
Lunch - Chicken & Salad sandwich on brown bread (Providing no one beats me to the chicken ones this time!!)
Afternoon tea - Orange & Coffee
Dinner - Trim pork stir fry with loads of veges!

I had plans to weigh daily this week, just to entertain my curiosity about what my body can do when I deprive it of cr@p food.
This morning I totally forgot!!!  And now I'm sitting here wondering what the scales might have said....
Last night on my way home I saw a lady that I had seen just a couple of weeks ago, and she reckons I have lost more weight!!
Her reaction was something along the lines of "Ohmigod - you are looking so slim and terrific!"
I didn't want to burst her bubble (or mine for that matter) so I just said laughed it off and said thanks!
This morning I put on a pair of pants that have a belt built into them, and I have always worn the belt on the second hole, this morning I had to do it up to the third, and the butt is a bit baggy, so according to the pants, I am smaller!
Just wish the scales reflected that!  
Funny how I put so much emphasis on the numbers huh?
Did I mention already that there are 51 steps between here and reception?
I work on the 3rd floor (or second I guess if you count reception as the ground floor), and we have no lift!
Hang on - that is wrong - we DO have a lift but it is so old and scary that I have never been brave enough to actually use it - no one does!
So, every time I go to reception, or go out to have a smoke (Yeah yeah I know - TERRIBLE HABIT!!), I have to walk down 51 steps, and then back up them again!
Yesterday I must have gone up and down 10 times if not more, and the funny thing is, today my thighs are aching!
I noticed it when I got to work and had to face the stairs for the first time!
Too funny!  
Even funnier is the fact that there is NOTHING that can be done to avoid them - so in a way that is good for me, but in another way it is bad for aching muscles!  
Hahahahaha....
Righto - back to work for me!

9.40am
Starting to feel a little hungry, I can't get into a system that I need to this morning, and it has thrown everything out of whack for the day.
Funny how when things go bad, or get stressful, I automatically want food!
Think I'll go make a coffee instead....

11.21am
Just gave in to temptation and ate a licorice allsort!
Bloody hell it was lovely!!  hahaha... the small joys!!
On to my second bottle of water for the day - good job!
Feeling positive! :)

12.34pm
HUNGRY!
Water just isn't cutting it.
Gonna go to lunch and chow down on my sandwich!
2nd bottle of water gone, and 68 million trips to the loo!

4.15pm
Day has totally turned to crap... too busy to think about eating this afternoon - maybe good, maybe bad?
I need a drink and a smoke, and no time for either dammit!

Last nights dinner went according to plan - Shepards pie, cabbage, carrots & beans
And it was YUM!
After dinner, J and Rhian had ice cream - I managed to steer clear of it.
Although later in the night I was craving something sweet, so I gave in and had a mini Kit Kat.
Just one of those snack size ones, so it satisfied the craving and wasn't too heavy on calories/points/fat whatever.
YAY ME!

This morning I have a headache - not sure why, but I'm picking that it may be something to do with the fact that I am getting rid of all the crap in my system and maybe it has gone into withdrawals?
Well, that's my theory and I'm gonna stick to it!  hahahaha.....

The plan for today looks something like this:

Breakfast - Porridge with trim milk (Yes - I'm going to TRY to have breakfast!!!  Even if it is later than what it should be - maybe 9am?)
Morning tea - WW Cereal bar (If i feel like it after having breakfast!!)
Lunch - Chicken & Salad Sandwich
Afternoon Tea - Orange
Dinner - Trim pork stirfry with LOADS of veges on rice

So there ya have it,
And another day begins.....

11.22am
Breakfast was a success, although I made it a little too runny, so less water will go in it next time!
Just had my performance review and have to go stright into another meeting, so not sure if/when I will get morning tea at all.
Head is still pounding - just took panadine and now my tummy is churning and crampy!
I cant win!  I try to do something GOOD for my body and it repays me by going to the pack!  ARGH!!!

1.55pm
That's lunch over and done with - almost stuck to the menu, except some bugger beat me to the chicken sandwich again, so today I opted for Tuna and Salad on wholegrain bread instead of Ham on white.
Added a banana too, cos I wanted something sweet afterwards.
Head is still a little tender, but the painkillers seem to have done their job - mostly!
On to my third bottle of water for the day, and loo trips are still too frequent for my liking!
Apparently my body will get used to the water intake and I wont have to go as often!
I'd like that to happen now please :)