Just4Jo - A fat chick trying not to be...

Hahahaha...
I'm in a loopy loo mood today - not sure why!!
I really AM blaming it on the time of the year!
I must have come across really negative yesterday.... I'm not really.
Truly!
Hehehe..
I really am enjoying life at present, I'm just enjoying it too much!!
Although I was supposed to go out last night for drinks with some friends, but I wasn't actually feeling that well - I blame it on the Subway that I had for lunch - I ended up going home to bed!!
What a blimmen nanna!  I was in my pj's in bed by 8.30pm!!!
Hahaha....
Must have needed it though, cos I woke up this morning when my alarm sprang in to life, feeling like a human again!
Work today has been quite good - I seem to have achieved quite a bit, so that has improved my mood as well!
I still have a huge pile of stuff to tackle tomorrow, but that is another day, and I'll take it all in my stride!
I'm gonna try to get to the gym tomorrow after work, and then I'll try to get there at least once more over the weekend...
I have such a busy one planned!
Tonight I am off to Rachels place to help her out with hair and make-up.
Tomorrow night I'm out with a couple of friends on the town.
Saturday I'm going out to lunch with another friend that I haven't seen for a while.
Saturday afternoon I'm going for drinks with some workmates.
Saturday evening we have a work BBQ, then after that finishes, I'm meeting up with some other workmates (they work in a different department) who are also having a BBQ, and we are all going out on the town again!!!
Sunday I have the Bloggers picnic and I'll hopefully have some time to recover from Friday and Saturday nights!!!
In fact, every weekend until January I have something on both Friday and Saturday nights!!
Crazy huh???
It's absolute madness trying to keep my social calender in any sort of order I can tell ya!!!
Hahahahahahaha........
Oh yeah - remember my flood?
Well the dollar value I have had to fork out for that little debacle, is over $1000!!!!!
$250 for the landlords insurance excess
$150 to get the floors dried out the second time (when Rhian turned the tap on!!)
$700 power bill for the heaters and dehumidifiers and air movers for a month!!!!!
HOLY CRAP!!!
Now that is cash that I just don't have sitting around, so HOPEFULLY my insurance company will help out with the power bill!
Actually - that reminds me - I better ring them now!!!!

I was reading a couple of blogs last night after I updated my own, and was freaked out to see that every one I read, was depressing!!
Well, not depressing as such, more like just down.
I reckon it must be that time of the year!!!
I know that I am in a total funk about everything at the moment!!!!!
Everyone in my office is uptight - in fact, I found out that one of my co-workers is resigning soon - WITHOUT another job to go to!!!
My best girlfriend is losing her job due to our company restructure, and not only does she have herself to try to keep "up", she also has a team of 8 under her that she has to keep in check as well!
Now it is hard enough at times for her to happy and upbeat about things in her own working future, let alone keep the team morale up as well!!!
And then of course there is me - having a huge case of survivor guilt!!
I get to keep my job, yet 150 others lose theirs!!  Where the hell is the justice in that I ask you???
ARGH!!
Then I have another friend who is in the process of leaving her partner, and I found out this morning that he is actually moving out of the house they own together!
She is all over the place emotionally - one minute she's happy and buzzing about starting a new life, then next she is panicking that she is making the wrong decision!
Then of course there is the weight loss thing for me too!
It's just not happening!!
Well, it might have something to do with the fact that the gym seems to be the last thing on my mind these days....
I'd much rather go home and lax out in front of the tv and watch mind numbing crap that I don't have to think about while shovelling pineapple lumps into my huge gaping whole of a mouth!!!
Hahahaha.....
Then of course there is the beer!
I have taken a fancy to Becks beer.  
Combine that with the fact that I have had a LOT of social outings recently, which in turn means a LOT of Becks has been consumed!
And of course when the Becks gets guzzled, the munchies happen!!!
Now I gotta tell ya that whoever introduced me to Basil pesto with cashew nuts, spread onto a generous dollop of cream cheese sitting on top of a hunk of French bread - needs to be shot!!
Hmmmmmm, thinking back - I'm sure it was my mother!!!!!   THANKS JENNY!!!!  :)
I really do have to end my relationship with Mr Becks, and reaccquaint myself with Mr Gym!!!
Hehehee.....
Righto - work to do.....

That is what I am of my weight!!
BLISSFULLY UNAWARE!!!
I didn't weigh in on the weekend, cos I knew that I would have had a gain...
So I chose to stick my head in the sand and remain blissfully unaware of the numbers!!
I'll get back on the scales this week, but for now, I'm enjoying not knowing!
Does that make sense?
I'm off the rails, must be that time of the year, mixed with being sick, mixed with not caring enough at present!
Hehehehe...
Must be that time of the year I reckon!
I can't be bothered being at work - in fact I dread going in these days!
Still trying to get back into the swing of things after my wonderful holiday I think!
I've dreamt of giving up work completely, but of course there is still rent to pay and bills to cover.... I need to win lotto so money wouldn't an issue!
Righto - here is a pic of my new haircut:





















I got totally pissed off with the world one day last week, so I went in to the nearest hairdressers, and said "CUT IT ALL OFF!"
And so she did!
I LOVE IT!!
I LOVE IT!!
I LOVE IT!!
It takes me about 30 seconds to "do" it in the morning, and I dont have to even think about using my hairdryer on it!
I LOVE IT!!!!

Oh yeah - excuse the big old crusty ColdSore on my lip!! Hehehehe...
That's all gone now - thank god!!

Righto - I dont have a hell of a lot more to say, so I might as well go and do something constructive..... like watch trashy TV!!!

My God - where is the time going?
I'm still trying to shake this damn flu.... still coughing and sniffing like a mad woman, such a good look!
NOT!!!!!
I went to he gym on Saturday and had a great workout on the treadmill, did a bit of running and walking, but afterwards my chest and throat were so damn tight!
I felt like my chest was going to explode!
I jumped in the sauna in the hope that the steam would help, and I think it did to a certain degree, but I wont be going back again until I am 100%.
It's not worth feeling that crap after a workout!
I have Rhian this week, and she is an absolute treasure!
Although we are in the Toilet Training stage, and she is fighting it with every ounce of her being!
Gee - wonder where she gets her stubbornness from???
Hahahaha...
Not much more to report at all to be honest!
I'm just cruising through life having a few laughs along the way at moment!
I REALLY REALLY wanna be under 108kgs by Christmas time, but that is just 4 1/2 weeks away, and I have 4.5kgs to go to get there.... I know it can be done, but I am not going to jinx it by saying that I WILL do it!
Does that make any sense at all???
Anyway, I should go and do some work....
This week is my first full week back at work since before I went on holiday, and I'm struggling already!  
Hahaha.....
I need to find a job that will pay me more, but lets me work less hours!
YEAH RIGHT!!!!

A loss of 100grams!
Is that it??
Guess it has a lot to do with the fact that when I am sick, I eat and eat and eat..
Everything and anything!
Onwards and downwards for next week!

Dunno when the last time I updated was...
I went to the Dr on Tuesday morning, he took one look at me and put me off until next Monday!
So Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday saw me lazing around the house in my jim jams!
I've come to work today though - I felt better this morning.
Jumped out of bed, into the shower, my arms were a little heavy when i was washing my hair, but I ignored that!
Drying myself took a bit of an effort... but I was going to work!
My hairdryer felt like a tonne weight, and it was a mission to put on make up!
Made my way to Maccas for my Trim latte to start the day, then headed off to work.
Walked in the door and was told that I still looked like shit!
Hmmmmmmm...
Now it's 10.26am and I am struggling to find the energy to type this, let alone do any REAL work!
I think I'll be lucky to make lunch time!
I remember the warm comfy feeling of my bed..... I think that is where I wanna be!
Of course the down side to being sick all week is the fact that I have eaten shite!!!
I am a comfort eater, so this week I have had macaroni cheese, enough chocolate to feed a starving nation for a year, LOADS of bread with peanut butter, and anything else that didn't have to be cooked!!
SHOCKING!
I'm a bit too scared already about weigh in tomorrow!
Of course on the upside - is that I have been getting loads and loads of vitamin C cos I have been knocking back the orange juice like it is going out of fashion!
My coldsore is still hanging around, but I have figured out that if I stop picking at it, it looks a lot better!
Ooooo, and for those of you that have had cold sores before....  here is a question:
All the stuff I have read about them, says NOT to let the scab come off.
HOW THE HELL DO YOU DO THAT????
It comes off by itself when I have a shower!
Plus of course, having a snotty nose doesn't help - cos I keep on knocking it when I blow!
ARGH!!!!
I HATE being sick!
I am such a bloke!
Hehehehe....

I think I'm run down.
Actually - I KNOW that I am run down!
I have a coldsore for the first time in my life!
I got sunburnt one day in Sydney and as a result my nose and lips peeled, and the chemist says that is a perfect scenario for a cold sore to appear!
It also doesnt help that I have been stressing about a few things that were happening at home while I was on holiday....
One of which is the fact that it was announced that the company I work for is closing the Wellington branch, and as a result, over 100 people will lose their jobs!
At this stage, I am one of the few lucky ones that will be keeping their job, but of course it is early days yet - and anything can happen!
Had a few issues with some friends while I was away too, they were going through some stuff, and I have a tendancy to worry much about others, so that wont be helping my health at all.
Now that I am back, I feel a lot calmer about things, but I think my body has decided that it will pack up, because as well as the coldsore, I also have a good case of the flu!
I came home early from work today and crashed out, and I'll see how I feel tomorrow as to whether I go in at all....
Once my health is under control - I'll be back to the gym with a vengeance - I have missed it so bad!!!
Righto - I'm tired just typing this, so I'm gonna go and have some soup for dinner and hit the sack again!
I LOVED my holiday but it's good to be back home again too!

I got away with "only" a 2.6kg gain over the two weeks that I was on holiday, and also the 1 week that I have been home - THANK GOD!!

I was really dreading hopping on the scales, cos I honestly thought that is was gonna be a hell of a lot worse, but it wasn't and I'm happy!