Just4Jo - A fat chick trying not to be...

We were told today that there was a group of about 20 "Army Guys" coming through for a tour of our warehouse here at work.

Well, we have been TOTALLY ripped off!!

They are not "Army Guys" in the way that I know "Army Guys"

They are new recruits and the oldest one cant be more than about 18!!!!

BUMMER!!!!

Here was me hoping for something yummy to look at this afternoon!

Hehehehe.....

Ah well, that'll learn me for being such an old perve huh??

Other things........

Wen to the gym this morning and had myself a fan-freaken-tastic workout!!

I could really feel it in my muscles by the time I left, so that has put me in a good mood for the rest of the day!!

Made a really yummy dinner last night - with a recipe that I got from my gorgeous mother.

I'll have to find the link and post it here.......

We have the wedding to go to tomorrow - and I still have NO idea on what I am going to wear!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!

Just hope that something fits!

Really looking forward to the road trip on Sunday - in fact, I reckon that will be the highlight of my weekend!!!

Just dont tel the bride on Saturday OK?

Hehehehe.......

Righto, once these pimply faced little kids have gone, I can go and reheat the leftovers from dinner last night for my lunch.

BINGO - they just left - FOOD TIME!!!!!!!!!!

I'm at home today - couldn't be bothered going to work, so I'm calling this a "Mental Health Day".

Dunno what the problem is......... just cant be bothered with the bitchiness of the office at the moment.

The two ladies that I work with, hate each other, and I am constantly getting stuck in the middle.

Of course I dont want to take sides or offend anyone, so I just try to support each of them, and end up being the one that they both bitch and moan to.

Sooooooooo didn't wanna have to deal with that today!

They very nearly came to blows last week - very yukky atmosphere that's for sure!!

One of them is going away on holiday for 2 weeks in May, so that will be nice....

Anyway, I have a mountain of housework to do, so this aint getting it done!

Later gators!!

Oooooooo, check out my friend Rachel's website it is just new, and I KNOW that it is gonna rock!!!!

Got home from mum and dad's place last night.....

Had the crappiest nights "sleep" ever!!!

Seemed to watch the minutes tick by soooooo  s l o w l y

Nearly ended up in tears at about 4am, I was so tired!!!

But I still got up at 5.15am and went to the gym this morning...

Work is mental today, so that doesn't help the pounding headache I have had most of yesterday and today!

Going out walking with Helena this evening, so maybe that might kick this damn headache once and for all!

Might make it worse of course, but hey - it's worth a shot huh??

Been a points counting angel today.......

But after the weekend, I reckon it will take a couple of weeks to undo the damage!

Haven't been brave enough to jump on the scales yet - I'll leave that until Saturday morning.

Oh yeah, we are going to a wedding on Saturday, and I have nothing to wear!!!

ARGH!!

Well, actually, I have a wardrobe full of clothes, but nothing that really jumps out and says "WEDDING"

Dunno what I will wear........

Chris ripped the shower out in the ensuite yesterday while I was away...

Turns out the rotten skirting board (that I put the vacuum cleaner through a couple of weeks ago) is MUCH MUCH more than just rotten skirting board!!

The floor is falling to pieces, and so is the back of the vanity unit!!

Stupid thing is, that the insurance company wont cover it, as they deem it to be caused by "lack of maintenance!!!"

How the hell can it be a lack of maintenance when it was leaking BEHIND the damn wall where we couldn't see it!!!!!!

I'm gonna fight these bastards all the way I tell ya!!

Anyway, it means that our ensuite now consists of a vanity unit that is falling to bits, a gaping hole where the shower used to be, and a toilet.

I guess at least the loo still works huh??

I have shoved towels into all the holes in the floor and walls, cos I am paranoid about mice or rats or creepy crawlies getting in to my house!!!

Ewwwww yuck!!!

OK, so much for being a quick update......

Gotta get back to work!

Did I mention already my fantastic loss this week of 1.3kg???

Well, I am sure that i have proabbly put all that back on - just in CHEESECAKE alone!!!

Hehehehe........

My mum (the bestest cook in the whole entire world!!!) made this incredible dessert on Saturday, and we have been eating leftovers ever since!!

I will sure be glad when it is gone!!!

It was a biscuit base, then a layer of cream cheese filling stuff, then crushed pineapple, then fresh banana, then cream, then chocolate sauce!!!!1

Oh My God!!!!!

Of course, if that wasn't bad enough............ there was also the lemon cheesecake that someone else brought along to the dinner on Saturday night, and the leftovers of that have been slowly disappearing into my mouth as well!!

ARGH!!

My butt is gonna be made up of pure cream cheese if I am not careful!!

Oh yeah - then there was the AMAZING pasta dish that my gorgeous sister made last night!

Penne pasta, chicken, pesto, cream, pine nuts, parmesan cheese!!

HOLY COW!!!!!

Anyway, I have had my indulgences, so today it is time to get back n the straight and narrow and aim for a good week and a good result on the scales next weekend!

Although, if I dont have a loss - I am blaming the cheesecake and pasta! Hehehehe....

Gonna go out for a walk today - I have promised myself that already!

I MUST WALK!!!!!

I HAVE to walk today!!

I just HAVE to!!!!

We are going out for dinner tonight - lord only knows what will be on offer!

But I'm picking that it will be great!

I WILL be good!!!

I'll pretend that everyone is looking at what I am eating - that way I KNOW that I will be good!!!

Rhian is abolutely LOVING being here with her "Narny" (Nanna), "Dandy" (Grandad) and "DartySte" (Aunty Steph).

She is just following Dandy around all day long, and copying everything that he does.

It is soooooooooo cute!!!!

Righto - best I get organised for the day huh?

I am going to catch up with a gorgeous friend of mine that i havent seen since around Christmas time!!!

She was pregnant then, and has probably had the baby since, and I am such a terrible friend that I dont even know if she has, or if it was a boy or a girl!!!

I am terrible terrible terrible!

Or as my mum puts it: Just a very busy lady!!

Hehehe...

I like mums description better!

I had a hell day at work yesterday - the internal computer system went down at about 10.30am, so we had to do everything manually! Makes you wonder how the hell we ever coped before the "wonderful" computer was invented huh??

So now I am mum and dad's place in Foxton and just RELAXING!!!

It is fan-flippen-tastic!!!

I drove up after work yesterday and wont be going home until Tuesday, so it is a lot of stress free relaxing! YAY!

Rhian has been a little treasure, and despite the fact that she was in a new bed last night - she only woke once, so that was brilliant!

Then her wonderul nanna and grandad got up to her at 7am and read her stories and kept her entertained. Then fed her breakfast while her tired mummy slept in until 8.30am!!!

I haven't slept in til 8.30am for AGES!!!!

It was wonderful!!!!!

Oh yeah - weigh in..........

I weighed in yesterday morning, and recorded a fantastic loss of 1.3kg!!!!

It takes me down to 118.6kg - GO ME!!!

I was thrilled with the result - especially since I havent been the bestest gym bunny in the world this week!

I mean I made sure that i walked while we were away in Napier, but once we got back, I was exhausted and not feeling the best, so it was so easy to turn the alarm off and go back to sleep!

Once I get back home on Tuesday, I will get back into my routine of morning workouts, but while I am here, I just plan on walking..........

Hehehe........ good intentions are one of my strong points!!

Pity I can't seem to follow through on a lot of them huh??

Well, not a lot more to report for today........ I'm just enjoying not having to worry about being anywhere or doing anything!

It is GREAT!!!!

I'm tired...

Yesterday I had a thumping headache for most of the day, and ended up cancelling my weekly walk with Helena!

I went home, Chris reheated some soup, made some toast and that was dinner!

I was in bed super early and crashed out not long after!

I was exhausted!

Not much better today to be honest!

My alarm went off at 5.15am, and while I had every intention of going to the gym, I couldn't make myself get out of bed, so I stayed put until 6.30am when our little blonde pink pyjama wearing alarm went off beside the bed with "Daddy".

Too cute, but Oh so early!!!!

Anyway, I have been battling that same damn headache for most of today already, and I can only hope that it finally disappears this afternoon, as I have a Tupperware meeting tonight that I really "should" go to!

I  NEED to start working again (Doing Tupperware parties) but to do that, I need to get to the meeting to find out what is on offer this month........

Anyone wanna have a Tupperware party for me??  Hehehe.....

Hopefully my manager can come up with some leads for me.  She said she can anyway, so here's hoping!!

Chris has another throat infection, and was at the Dr's again last night.

Turns out that he has holes in his tonsils and food is getting into the holes and getting infected!!!!

I'd never heard of such a thing before to be honest!!

Anyway, if it keeps on happening, he will be looking at having them removed, which is a major operation for an adult, so we are just hoping that things will come right on their own!  

Rhian is officially enrolled in Daycare - my little girl is going to make so many friends!!!!  YAY!!!

She starts on the 22nd May!!

I know that she will love it, but it is a big step for her, considering she has always had one on one care since she was 11 weeks old!!

Holy heck - where does the time go to???

She turns 2 in three weeks time!!!!

Oh My God!!!!!

My gorgeous wonderful baby sister is coming over for a visit tomorrow from Sydney!

YAY!!!!!!

I am going up to mums place tomorrow night after work with Rhian, and we are staying up there until Tuesday!!!

How cool is that????

Mum has invited some people around for a pot luck dinner / party on Saturday night, so it will be good to catch up with some of the old crowd!  We always have a blast with these people, so I am sure that this weekend will be no exception!  

And I can't wait for Steph to see Rhian, and see how big and grown up she is!!!  Hehehe........ she is growing so fast at the moment, still a skinny mini, but she is getting tall!

Just like her mum!  The tall bit of course!  Hehee.......

Oooo, just realised that means that I will have to weigh in tomorrow morning instead of Saturday!

YAY!

I love weigh ins these days - just cos I know that I am on track and doing well!!

The pants that I have on today are looser than what they were a couple of weeks ago - so that is a great sign!!

Righto...... I have just had a coffee put on my desk, so best I go and drink it huh?

Actually, it is a Decaf coffee, with trim milk and artificial sweetener, so as someone put it - it is basically flavoured water!!!!!!!!!!

Too true - but NICE flavoured water all the same!  

I have had the most relaxing weekend ever!

It has been great and I only had one day "off"

I made sure that I went walking each day - except Sunday

And I made sure that I ate the best I could - except Sunday!

Hehehe.....

On Sunday I had some chips and dip, plus some chocolate, and some lollies too!

And I enjoyed every single one of them!

And I didn't feel (too) guilty about it either!

YAY ME!!!!!!!

Admittedly, I probably did drink too much over the entire weekend, but hey, that's life, and if I get too stressed about it, I will just dwell on it, and that ain't good!!

So, today it is back into the real world for Jo, and ya know what?

I can't stop eating!!!

I was running so late this morning, that I completely forgot to organise anything for lunch, so I have been nibbling on bits and pieces that were in my drawer.....

I've had a few raw nuts, a couple of pretzel sticks, a weight watchers cereal bar, a banana, an apple and I am about to have an orange cos I still feel hungry!!!

That'll teach me for being unprepared, and not having any money to buy anything!!

My alarm went off this morning at 5.15am all ready for me to go to the gym................

I turned it off and told myself to get out of bed, then the next thing I knew, Rhian was standing beside the bed saying "Mummy Help"

And I looked around to find myself alone in the bed, with Rhian wanting her gumboots on, and I could hear Chris in the shower!

It was 6.47am!!!!

HOLY CRAP!!!

How did that happen????

I know that I was tired when i turned my alarm off, but I didn't think that I was THAT tired!!

Anyway, that basically set up my mood for the rest of the day, and I have been yawning my way through it very begrudgingly!!

We are off to the Rolling Stones concert tonight..........

YAY!!  I can't wait!

Not for the Rolling Stones, but for the support band - NICKELBACK!!!

Wooohoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

So chances are, tomorrow, I will be very very tired again!!!!

Righto, I am leaving early, so that means I have half an hour left to get my desk cleared.......... best I make a start!!!

I gained this week!

700 grams.

Takes me to 119.9kg

I am in two minds here.......

One:

I can ignore the number and know with my hand on my heart that I am doing everything right.

Two:

I can get shitty about it and binge and ruin all the work that I have already done.

OK, so I choose ONE.

But to say that I am not disappointed, would be a complete lie!

I expected a loss.

I wanted a loss.

I deserved a loss.

Why didn't I get a loss?

I know, I know........ my body is adjusting!

I get that.

I just wanted the numbers to be smaller that's all!

Still, at least my jeans are getting bigger!

Hehehehe......

Or should I say, at least my butt is getting smaller!!

Righto - off to Napier in an hour, so best I get my diminishing butt off this seat and into the shower before my ever patient husband goes without me!

Have a great Easter everyone!!!!!!!!!

Went  to  the gym last night and really worked up a good sweat........ it was AWESOME!!!

Then I did it all over again this morning!!

YAY ME!!

I have been super diet girl for over two weeks now and I am loving it!!!!

Can't wait for weigh in this week......... although it will be a day early, cos we are heading off to Napier for the long weekend, so I will weigh on Friday this week.

I'm feeling a LOT better than what I was yesterday...... think it might have been the pain-killers that I was on for my finger!

They had Codeine in them.......so maybe that is what was making me feel yuk??

Speaking of my finger.......... it is slowly getting better.  Although if I bump it at all, I still just about hit the damn roof!

It is so tender!!!

Blah!

I'm going out walking with Helena tonight....... Should be good - I'm looking forward to it - she rocks!!

What else??

Dunno!!

I'm pumped though!!

I just feel damn fantastic about everything at the moment..

Guess that is what happens when I actually start to take care of myself huh??

Hehehehe......

Shoulda done this YEARS ago!!!

I feel really weird today...... kind of light headed and just wonky!

Dunno why....... maybe I need chocolate!!

Hehehehe..

Going to the gym in 25 minutes.......... YAY!!!

Looking forward to a good workout.....

GO ME!

Finger still hurts

Phones still out at work

Nothing else to say really!

Boring huh??

AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goddamn it hurts!!!!!!

Sorry

It’s just that my finger hurts like hell……..

Amazing how something so stupid and small can affect so much!

It hurts if I don’t hold it up, it hurts if it bumps anything, I’m not allowed to get it wet…… can you imagine how stupid I looked this morning showering with a rubber glove on????

Hehehehe……………

BUT……. It didn’t stop me from going to the gym and sweating my ass off!!  NAUGHTY HUH????

Well, hopefully I sweated some of my ass off, and some of my thighs, and tummy too would be nice!!

Hehehe…..  I crack me up!!!

Anyway, this morning it would have been SOOOO easy to stay in bed and say “Stuff It” to exercise!

I had a crap nights sleep, cos of my finger of course…….

It was absolutely pissing down outside and there was awesome thunder and lightening as well!!

But, when my alarm went off at 5.20am, I bounded out of bed…… (OK, so it was more like I ROLLED out of bed)

Skipped down the hallway……….. (OK, I stumbled down the hall way)

And got changed into my gym gear, chucked on a cap, and off I went!!!

YAY ME!!!!!!!

I really enjoyed the work out this morning, except of course for my finger hurting like hell, but I just carried on……….

Work has been a nightmare today…… we have no phones and no fax connection at all!!

It is pure madness……. Well, it was pure madness for a while, but at least it was quiet for a while too without phones ringing all day long!  

Oh yeah, On Friday night when I went out for dinner with my old owkrmates, it was really funny….

When I was working there, we had our photo taken for the front of the product catalogue, and we were looking at the photo reminiscing……… and one of the new guys was asking why I wasn’t in the photo!

I laughed and said that I was, and he argued that I wasn’t…..

Then, one of the guys that I used to work with pointed me out and said “That’s the OLD Jo”

The reaction from the new guy was great!!!!

It really put a smile on my face!!  Hehehehe………..

And of course it made it so easy to eat well that night too!!!

Righto, time to do some work before I head off early to get my finger seen to!

Oh yeah – heard from a daycare centre today – they have a space for Rhian form the 22nd May, so that is just about PERFECT!!!!

YAY!!!!

Yep…….

You all know what I am gonna say right??

I’M NEVER DRINKING AGAIN!!!!

Hehehehe…..

Actually, my head is fine today, but I can’t say the same about my finger!!
Playing silly buggers at 2am when drunk is NOT a good idea – although it seemed like fun at the time……

As the saying goes:

It’s all great fun until someone gets hurt!

Well, that someone was ME!!!

We were going from room to room and I was standing in the doorway with my hand resting on the frame, when someone decided to kick the door shut, and SLAM – there goes my finger!!

It looked pretty blimmen flat when it came out, and I have split the skin at the tip so it wouldn’t stop bleeding!!
LITTERALLY wouldn’t stop bleeding!!

It was still bleeding when I got home at midday!!!

So, a trip to the Dr and an ACC claim later…….. I have a huge bandage on my middle right finger and am on pain killers and anti-inflammatorys for a few days!!

I have to back tomorrow to get it re-dressed, so that will be fun I imagine!! NOT!!

Hehehe…

I was gonna go for a workout at the gym this afternoon and have a sauna, but I have to keep my finger clean and dry so that the gym was out of the question!!

I will go tomorrow morning and start my weekly routine, but I won’t be able to incorporate any arm weights for a few days, until the pressure eases up a bit!
TYPICAL HUH???

I am such a dork!!!!!!!


BUT……… the night away was great, and at the prize giving I got a trophy!!!

ME!!

I got a trophy!!

It was for the “Most Improved”

I was stoked!!

It was the ONLY trophy that was given out, and it is the first time that it has ever been done!

I was sooooo proud!!

Everyone was really great and gave me loads of claps and stuff, so it was a fantastic way to start the evening!
The meal was lovely, and although I caved in and had some garlic bread, I stuck to my guns and had the chicken salad while everyone else tucked into their huge plates of fish and chips!

It was good though – I really enjoyed the salad, knowing that I had made the right decision made it even yummier!!

Turned down the dessert menu, so that was even better!!!!

Of course, all the alcohol wouldn’t have been very helpful, but I got so drunk and lost count of my points anyway, so I dunno how badly I went over!!!

Hehehehehehe………

Right – It’s blimmen hard to type with my finger bandaged up like it is, so I’m gonna head off and eat dinner, then have an early night!!

I’ve already had a two hour nanna nap today!
YAY ME!!!

yep - a REALLY small loss!

Just 300 grams today........... was a bit gutted with the number, but at the end of the day it means 4kg in two weeks, and I have to learn how NOT to focus so much on the numbers, and more on my clothes and the way that I am feeling!

Speaking of clothes.

I have a new pair of jeans on today that I got a few weeks ago but they were too tight, so in just a few short weeks, I have been able to shed a wee bit of bulk to enable me to now wear the jeans.

That is fantastic!

Last night's dinner was OK. it was a Chinese Banquet type situation, so there was lots if different things to try.....

The one thing that did disappoint me, was the severe lack of vegetables!

Starter was chicken and sweet corn soup - ALL GOOD!

Next was Sesame Pork Toast, wontons, dimsum, chicken wings - ALL NOT GOOD!

Then there was fried rice, sweet & sour pork, chicken & Cashew nuts, beef & Black been, egg fu yung, and satay chicken.

All the mains consisited mostly of meat and there were very few vegetables at all, so I just sampled a little of each without overdoing it, and stuck to drinking my water........

All in all I feel I was quite succesful............ I didn't really NEED the small ice cream sundae afterwards, but hey, it was literally only one small scopp of icecream, so I am not stressed about it at all.

I am leaving shortly to head over to pick up a couple of my team mates from the Dragon Boat team, and then we are going over to Lake Ferry to start the procedings........... it's gonna be a very long day!!

Oh yeah - I didn't get to the gym this morning............ bugger it all!!

My gym buddy was too hungover, and there was too much to do aroundt he house, so thought better of it.

I'll hopefully get there tomorrow afternoon once I get back, but I'll play it by ear.

I still have the flu and am still feeling pretty lousy, but there is NO WAY that I am missing out on the end of season party tonight! NO WAY AT ALL!!!

I'm really trying to be positive here folks........

But I woke up this morning feeling no better or worse than what I did when I went to bed last night, so the gym was the last thing that I wanted to do!

I cuddled up under the blankets and took advantage of having an extra hour in bed!

Now, my nose is still blocked, my throat is still tickly, and my eyes are still puffy!

ARGH!!!!

I'm NOT going to give in to it though, and I am trucking on...........

But I still feel guilty for not gymming last night or this morning!

How crazy is that then????

Food has been outstanding this week, I have come in on or just over 20 points every day, which is pretty good I think, and apart from the slight bend in the road (being my flu) it has all been pretty much smooth sailing!

I have enjoyed being in control like you wouldn't believe.........

LONG MAY IT LAST!!!!!

I'm up for a challenge tonight....... I know it will be a hard one!

I am going out for drinks and dinner with the company that I used to work for a few years ago.

One of the guys there just got made redundant, so they are doing a "This is your life" thing for him, and I am included!

It is starting with drinks at the office, then we are going to dinner in Petone to a Restaurant called "First Choice".

Now, I thought that I would prepare myself, and actually go and visit the restaurant BEFORE this evening to look at the menu and PLAN what I was going to have.

But when I drove past it, it was closed, and to be honest, it looked like a Chinese takeaway!!!!!!

OH HELL!!!!!!!

It is a BYO, so at least I wont be tempted by the bar, cos I am not going to take ANYTHING with alcohol in it!! I have to drive home and because I will be drinking tomorrow night, I didn't think two nights in a row was gonna be such a good idea!

So, I have the liquid side of things under control............... No worries!!!

I'm gonna take another drive past this afternoon to see if they have a menu up on the window or anything, cos I really don't want to have to make a hasty decision and regret it.

See - things ARE changing in my life huh??

Anyway, I'm certainly not planning on a big night, just cos I feel so terrible, but then again, I won't NOT go, cos I really got on well with the guy who's farewell it is.

Now, tonight is not the only challenge that I am facing this weekend.

Tomorrow I am heading away with my Dragon Boat team for our end of season prizegiving and party!

I have asked to see the menu from the restaurant, so that should come through this afternoon, so HOPEFULLY I can find the thing that will be the best so that I can drink lots and forget my flu!!

Hehehehehe..............

Oooo, me and Ange are going to the gym in the morning, and after our work out, we are gonna try out the sauna!!

Cool huh!?!?!?!?

Bugger, gotta go into a meeting.......

Well, I listened to my body, and instead of going to the gym, I came home instead!

It's now 8.30pm and I am going to bed!

I'll see how I feel in the morning and then decide on whether I will do a workout before work or not.

I hope I feel better, cos at the moment my eyes are stinging, my face is throbbing and my nose is running - not a good look!

Righto - bed time!

ARGH!!!!

I have to make a decision.........

You see, my gym buddy has had to pull out of our agreed work out tonight............. bugger!

So, I dunno what to do!!!

I dunno if I should go as planned and work out by myself.

Or if I should go to the gym that is closer to home and work out by myself.

Or if I should flag it and not go to the gym at all.........

Maybe just go walking??

But then again............nothing sounds good - cos I have the flu!

BUGGER!!

Typical though!!  Just as I start to get back into a healthy life, something like this comes and knocks me back!

I think I mentioned it yesterday, and how I was thinking positive and just calling it snuffles?

Well, it is a LOT of snuffles now, plus a tickly cough, plus my body aches as well.........

BUT........ I'm not actually sure if I am achey from the flu, or achey from my workouts!!!

Hehehe........ so I have a decision to make!

Gym?

Walk?

or Nothing?

I still have 1 hour and 41 minutes left to make this decision, so hopefully I will make the right one!!

Oh yeah - it's our 4 year wedding anniversary today!!!

I think back to our wedding day and realise just how far I have come...........

YAY!!!

It also makes me see how far I still have to go, but these days, it is all SO achievable!!!

GO ME!!!

I just had to post this………….

It is part of an email that I sent a very dear friend of mine, and as I was typing it, I thought that it would also make a great journal entry too:


I feel like a different person already!  I feel happier, more energised and just proud all the time now!

I actually THINK about what is going into my mouth and what affect it will have on me........ not only physically, but emotionally as well!

I have spent far too long as a prisoner to food....... it feels fantastic to finally break free and feel alive again!

My God - that sounds like it came straight off a commercial!  I'm gonna use that in my journal later!  hehehee......

I tell ya what....... one of my "lightbulb" moments was a couple of weeks ago.........

A girl  that I work with and I were talking……….just about life in general and it got onto the gym thing…………….. and she said to me:

"So how long have you been ummmm bigger?"

Oh My Farken God!!!!

My heart sank, my face went bright red, and I just wanted the ground to open up and swallow me right then and there!!!

I think she could tell that I was mortified, cos she tried to make it right....... but just dug the hole deeper.....

So  I composed myself and just laughed it off.  I was sooooo embarrassed!

But I tell ya - a little part of me died inside right then!!

Everyone around me has always told me how great I am looking, and how well I have done....... I just smile and take the compliments.

Well, that is what I thought I did.

It turns out that I actually file the compliments away in the back of my brain for use at a later date.

You see, if everyone is telling me that I still look great (even though I had gained 15kgs since my lowest point) then it must be true!

It means that I can have that biscuit, or those takeaways, cos I "still look good"!!!

It didn't matter that my clothes weren't fitting, or I was getting unfitter by the day........

Oh no siree....... "So and so" told me that I looked great yesterday, so I don't have to worry about the scales saying 123kgs just yet do I?

I mean, if i ignore it, it'll go away wont it???

Anyway.......... that was a lightbulb moment right then and there..........

BUT - something good has come out of it - I am back on track and determined not to go wonky again!!!

Just remember that it won’t happen overnight, BUT IT WILL HAPPEN!!!!

I am so boring!!  It seems like all I ever talk about is the gym lately!!!  Hehehehe......

That's cos I LOVE IT!!!!!

I went along with Ange last night after work, and although it was busy, at NO stage did I ever feel out of place or intimidated by anyone there!

How great is that??

I said to Chris when I got home, that I feel much more comfortable at this gym than what I EVER did at Contours!

Weird??

Dunno, but at Contours it just seemed like there were women there trying to compete with each other a bit too much, and I felt like I was being judged a little.

Maybe at the time it didn't seem that way, but looking back that is certainly how I remember it to be....... Maybe I should look up one of my old journal entries to check?  Hehehe....

Anyway, it was busy, but there was two bikes free, so we started on them, then headed to the treadmills, then on to the weights......... it was FANTASTIC!!!!

I sweated like a demon, and had a fabulous work-out, and felt like a million bucks afterwards!!

Wooohooooo!!!!!!!!

Got home to find that Chris had dinner mostly all ready to go, so that was another plus for the day!

But before dinner I jumped into the bath to try to ease the achey-ness in my muscles..........  It worked a treat!!

My legs are the bits that are hurting the most - mainly down the fronts of my thighs from the cross trainer, but it is ALL GOOD!!!

After my bath, we sorted out Rhian's bed, cos Chris took the cot down and set up the Big Girls Bed!!!  

She was so excited, and was jumping up and down on it, squealing with excitement while we were trying to make it!

Too cute!!

Oh yeah - she only fell out once last night!!  YAY!!  My wee girl is growing up!!

This morning I was awake before my alarm, but just lay there for a couple of minutes stretching out my legs before jumping out of bed and getting changed into my gym gear.

It was 5.30am!!!

And I was in a great mood!!!!

VERY bizare!!!  hehehe...

I got to the gym at about 5.40am and did 50 minutes of pure cardio work.  It was fantastic!!

10 mins on the bike, 20 mins on the treadmill, 5 mins on the rower, 10 mins on the cross trainer, then another 5 on the bike......

Again, I sweated like a pig, but loved every minute!!

To be honest, I didnt know how I was going to get on with having to do 10 whole minutes on the cross trainer, as it is not exactly my bestest buddy, but when it got tough, I just shut my eyes and sucked it in and pushed through it!!  

I ROCKED!!!!!

Work today has been really quiet, so that has been a bit of a downer, as was the speeding ticket that I got this morning!!!

But that is life, and I should obey the speed limit huh???

Didn't matter that both Chris and I thought that the speed limit on this certain road was 70.............. it wasn't!!  Oooooops!!!

Never mind......... lesson learned!!!

OK, so I am going out walking with Helena this evening, and I know it will be good........

It will be great to stretch out my legs after sitting on my butt at my desk all day long!!

Pork chops for dinner.  Not sure what to have with them, but you never know, I might just get inspired on the way home!!

Oh yeah - I think I am coming down with the flu!!!!!

SUCKY HUH??

Although if I think positively about it, I just have a snuffly nose and a tickly throat, so I am onto it already!

Lemon and Honey drinks with plenty of extra vitamins etc.......  That should do the trick!!

There is NO WAY that I can be sick for the weekend!!  NO WAY!!!

Anyway, it's nearly time to go, so I should go and do some filing or something huh??

I have found muscles that I forgot I had, and some that I didn't even know I had in the first place!!!!

Only 1 hour and 16 minutes until I am going to the gym today........

Strange strange woman!!!!

Can't wait - I love it!!!!!

I never did get back yesterday to finish my update.......

I actually had to do some work!!

Shock Horror!!!

OK, so back to Sunday morning and me being all keen as mustard to go to the gym.......

It was really funny, cos I was raring to go and Ange was cracking up at me!

We got there and did a warm up on the bikes, then hit the treadmills, then did some light weights, then I went on the rower, then we did some stretches.

IT ROCKED!!!!!!

I sweated like a pig, and felt damn fantastic afterwards!!!

After the gym, I raced home and we headed off to Dannevirke to collect a single bed that Chris's parents had at their place for Rhian.

We just hung around and chatted the afternoon away, then it came to dinner time, and I had a choice to make.

We could either have takeaways, which would have been the easy option.  Or we could cook something.

No one seemed that enthused to do much of anything, so we headed off to the supermarket and bought a chicken and a salad and a loaf of bread and took it back and had chicken and salad.......... and it was lovely!!!!

I tell ya what - I felt ON FIRE that day!!!  

Exercise, healthy eating......... it all makes me feel fantastic!!!!!!

We got home at about 9.30pm on Sunday night, and I had to get my gym gear ready for the morning, cos I had my orientation booked for 6am, and I wanted to make sure that I was there on time!

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am ALWAYS the last to arrive anywhere......... I'm TERRIBLE at getting anywhere on time to be honest!!

Anyway, the next morning, I was awake BEFORE my alarm went off at 5.30am!!!

I turned it off so that it wouldn't wake Chris when it did go off, and I got changed and grabbed my towel and bottle and off I headed!

I must admit, that I had one very "put out" dog though!  She thought that we must have been going for a walk, and the look that she gave me when I picked up the car keys........ Priceless!

OK, so I got to the gym, and pulled up into the carpark to see a few personalised plates on cars........ one read something like MSCLMN (MuscleMan) and there was another that read RAMBO, so I was freaking out, thinking that the gym was gonna be packed of huge muscle bound guys hell bent on pumping more iron than I could ever dream of lifting!  It was quite intimidating, walking in the door alone at that hour of the morning, not knowing what to expect........

But I did it, and I held my head up high the whole time!!!

I got there at about 5.40am and the chick on reception expressed amazement that I was early - she said no one EVER turns up early!  Hehehehe.........

I jumped on a bike and within 2 mins, my newly appointed personal trainer came and introduced herself to me.

She was tiny!!!  

And muscly!!

And lovely!!!

We went off into a room where she got a bit of my history and my goals, then weighed me fully clothed with shoes on (and keys in my pocket!!!) and the scales said 121kgs.

I wasn't too phased by that though, as like I said - I was fully clothed WITH SHOES!!  Hehehehe......

I mean, it's not as if I could strip off right then and there huh?  Hehehehe, didn't want to give the poor thing a heart attack!!

After all the official bits were done, we went out into the gym and she made me start on the treadmill...........

10 mins @ 6.5km per hour and an incline of 2.

After 10 mins of that I was huffing and puffing and sweating, and then we started on the machines and swiss ball.........

Anyway, she well and truly put me through my paces and again, it felt FANTASTIC!!!

I sweated the whole time and felt as if I was actually ACHIEVING something!

It was so different to when I joined the gym a few years ago......... they were really light weights and easy exercises.

These were heavier weights and harder exercises, with a trainer standing beside me encouraging me the whole time!  

I know that she wont be there all the time, but having her there for the first session, telling me that she believes I have the right attitude to succeed, was a godsend!!!!

YEEEEEEEE HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt like the gym bunny that I professed to be!!!!

After the work-out and cool down, we talked some more, and she said that my goals are totally achievable, but it is not going to be an easy ride.

Hahaha - tell someone who DOESN'T already know that one hunny!!!

Hell, I KNOW that this is gonna be hard work - but it is like I have heard that magical CLICK in my head that I have been waiting on forever!!!

I mean I heard that CLICK loud and clear when I first started this journey......... but since I had Rhian, to be honest, I haven't really been that enthused about it at all............ As if you haven't noticed!!!!   Hehehehehehe.......

So............. I'M BACK BABY!!!!!

And I'm better than ever!!!!!!!!!

And I'm gonna kick ass and get to goal!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!

Bring it on baby............ this is my LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!

Who's coming along for the ride?!?!?!?!?!?!


P.S.  And just for the record............ I didn't see no MSCLMN or any RAMBO at the gym!!!!   Hehehe, maybe they were dreaming when they got the plates huh??

Rhian has finally figured out that she can get out of her bed by herself now...........

6.51am on Sunday morning, I heard the pitter patter of tiny feet, and then a wee blonde head popped up beside the bed and said "mummy!"

She was SOOOOO proud of herself!!!

My baby girl is growing up too fast!!!!!!!!!!!!

Growing UP is the operative word here.......... she is getting taller, but not getting any rounder - which is good as far as I am concerned, but it makes it damn hard to buy her clothes that fit!!!

She is a size 2 on her top half...... that means that the tops are long enough and so are the arms.

But on her bottom half, she is still a size 1, but they are all too short!!

We went out and bought her heaps of clothes for winter, all in size 2, and the tops are all great, but the bottoms are too big, and slide off her non-existant hips and butt!

Hehehehe..........

Maybe she WILL be a supermodel and take after her Aunty Steph after all!

Anyway........ enough of that!!!

I went to the gym yesterday as planned......... YAY ME!!!

It was quite funny really, cos I was so excited about going, I was ready half an hour before I was due to leave!!

I was like a kid at Christmas time, I tell ya!!

Anyway, I met my friend at her place and we went in one car, so that she could show me where to park etc......

Now, before I go on, I will explain something........

There is a gym in Upper Hutt, and a gym in Lower Hutt that are owned by the same people - Lifestyle Fitness.

After talking with Ange, my friend, I decided that I would really LOVE to work out with her some of the evenings, but also I want to be able to work out in the mornings before work some days too.

Ange is a member of the Lower Hutt gym, but if I joined that one, then it would mean having to bring two cars to work each day and I would have to get showered and changed for work at the gym....... I didn't want to do that.

But, then if I joined the Upper Hutt gym, then that would mean that I wouldn't be able to work out with Ange in the evenings..........

For those that don't know, it is about a 25 minute drive from Upper Hutt (where I live) to Lower Hutt (where I work).

ANYWAY........... I found out that Lifestyle offer something that is called a "Dual Membership" which basically means that for an extra small fee per week, I can use either gym whenever I like!

Cool huh?? So that is exactly what I have done, and the plan is this:

Monday, Wednesday & Friday mornings, I will go along to the Upper Hutt gym and do my cardio workouts, then go home, get showered and changed and go to work.

Tuesday & Thursday evenings, I will go to the Lower Hutt gym with Ange and we will do our weights sessions.........

Then, on the weekends, we will decide at the time what one to go to and what we will do, ie, cardio, weights or a class.

Make sense??

It also means that I can still walk in the evenings when and if Chris wants to go out, or, like on a Wednesday, I have a walking buddy - like the wonderful, inspiring, gutsy, gorgeous Helena!

Hehehehe............ Can ya tell that I am ON FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Be back soon...........

Holy Crap! Just goes to show how much crap I have been eating huh???

Last Saturday I weighed in at 123.2kgs, but didnt post it on here cos I was mortified at the number, and completely embarrased........

This morning I weighed in at 119.5kg

YAY ME!!!

Totally got my morning off to a fantastic start!!

I headed off to the gym this morning, and am now an official MEMBER of Lifestyle Fitness and I feel fantastic about it!!

I have my official orentation on Monday morning at 6am, but tomorrow I am heading off to the Lower Hutt branch with a friend of mine to do a workout with her...... YAY!!!

Can't wait!!!

Food has been exceptional today........

For lunch, I decided to try something different, so mixed up some cottage cheese with some flavoured tuna and a smidge of balsamic vinegar, then piled it all on to some ryvita crackers....... YUMMO!!!!!

It was delish, and really filling!

I am so on fire at the moment - it scares me!!

Righto - off to rescue Rhian from Chris, or is it rescue Chris from Rhian??

I never know these days!!